嘿，一，二，三。 Hey, one, two, three.
现在，红色的索罗杯是♪最好的容器 ♪ Now, red Solo cup is the best receptacle ♪
在烧烤、车尾门、集市和节日里 ♪ For barbecues, tailgates, fairs and festivals ♪
还有你，先生，你没有一对睾丸 ♪ And you, sir, do not have a pair of testicles ♪
♪如果你更喜欢用玻璃杯喝水，喔♪ ♪ If you prefer drinking from glass, whoo ♪
♪红色Solo杯♪-♪嗯哼♪ - ♪ Red Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Uh-huh ♪
♪我给你加油♪ ♪ I fill you up ♪
我们开个派对吧 ♪ Let's have a party ♪
♪我爱你，红色Solo杯♪ ♪ I love you, red Solo cup ♪
♪我把你举起来♪ ♪ I lift you up ♪
去派对，去派对 ♪ Proceed to party, proceed to party ♪
我真喜欢你这么容易堆叠 ♪ Now, I really love how you're easy to stack ♪
♪但是我真的很讨厌你这么容易被破解♪ ♪ But I really hate how you're easy to crack ♪
♪因为当啤酒从我的后背流下来时♪ ♪ 'Cause when beer runs down the front of my back ♪
我的朋友们，这是很恶心的 ♪ Well, that, my friends, is quite yucky ♪
但我不得不承认，女人都被迷倒了 ♪ But I have to admit that the ladies get smitten ♪
欣赏多么尖锐 ♪ Admiring how sharply ♪
我的名字是 ♪ My first name is written ♪
我用记号笔打你的时候 ♪ On you with a Sharpie when I get to hitting ♪
就靠它们来帮我走好运 ♪ On them to help me get lucky ♪
红色独奏杯 ♪ Red Solo cup ♪
♪我给你加油♪ ♪ I fill you up ♪
我们开个派对吧 ♪ Let's have a party ♪
去派对 ♪ Proceed to party ♪
-独奏-呸，哦，嘟 - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Bah, oh, doo ♪
-Solo cup-哦，哪哪 - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Oh, bo, doo ♪
-独奏-啊，哦， - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Ah, oh, doo ♪
-Solo cup-啊，哦，嘟嘟，哒，哒 - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Ah, ooh, doodle, da, doo ♪
-Solo cup-嗯哼，嗯 - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Uh-huh, mm ♪
-独奏-德，达，达 - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ De, dum, dum ♪
-Solo cup-噢，de, da, bah。♪ - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Ooh, de, da, bah. ♪
这个房间的潜力是惊人的。 The potential in this room is astounding.
我喜欢这种潜力。 I love the potential.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
这是一个充满无限可能的世界。 It's a world of infinite possibilities.
——无限。——倍。 - Infinite. - Hundred percent.
这么晚了，我该在"嘿"后面加多少个"Y"啊? How many "Y"s do I put in "Hey" at this time of night?
-凌晨2点前吗?-是的。 - Is it before 2:00 a.m.? - Yeah.
-两个Y -好的 - Two "Y" s. - Okay.
-三是渴了。——口渴。 - Three is thirsty. - Thirsty.
其中一个很简短 And one is curt.
你知道我在想什么吗? You know what I was thinking about?
曲奇饼变得非常受欢迎。 Cookie dough became so popular.
因为它还没有完成。它仍然可以是任何东西。 It's 'cause it's not finished. It could still be anything.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
用饼干面团做饼干只是个建议。 Making cookies out of cookie dough is just a suggestion.
——倍。-他们是这么说的-你可以用它——正确的。 - Hundred percent. - That's what they say - you could do with it. - Right.
同样的事情…比如和一个人约会一个多月。 And the same thing... Like dating someone for more than a month.
这只是一个服务建议。 It's just a serving suggestion.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
“卡拉问号。”也就是说我不记得在哪里见过她了。——好的。 "Kara question mark." That means I don't remember - where I met her. - Okay.
但它是一个带感叹号的问号，这意味着我应该想要跟进。 But it's a question mark with an exclamation point, which means I should want to follow up.
让我们先看看有什么选择。-是的。 -Let's see what the options are first though. -Yes.
正是如此。这就是我们生活的世界。 Exactly that. That's the world that we're living in.
你可以看到任何选项。 You can just see what the options are for anything.
像旅行。 Like with travel.
你不能只挑你看到的第一个航班。 You're not gonna just pick the first flight you see.
你想看所有的航班。 You want to see all the flights.
-这是好事。-是的。 - That's a good thing. - Yeah.
这样你就能坐上最好的飞机。 You get the best flight that way.
你为什么不通过观察所有潜在的人来找到最好的人呢? Why wouldn't you get the best person by looking at all the potential people?
你怎么能指望找到一个能满足你所有需求的人呢? And how could you even expect to find one person who could fulfill all of your needs?
找到最支持你的人更容易。 It's easier just to find the most supportive person here.
-这里最有趣的人。——正确的。 - The funniest person here. - Right.
-最棒的性爱。——正确的。 - The best sex here. - Right.
这是最好的建议。 The best advice here.
第二爽的性爱。 The second-best sex here.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
我从来不想知道别人的父母以什么为生。 I don't ever want to go past knowing what someone's parents do for a living.
如果我知道某人的父母是做什么的…——正确的。正确的。-我耽搁太久了。 If I know what someone's parents do for a living... - Right. Right. - I've hung too long.
或者,像兄弟姐妹。比如，为什么有人想知道你的兄弟姐妹?尤其是这么早。 Or, like, siblings. Like, why does anyone want to know about your siblings? Especially so early.
-是的。-“你有几个兄弟姐妹?” -Yeah. -"How many siblings do you have?"
有没有改变过你是否想和别人约会? Has that ever changed whether you want to date somebody?
就像"我有两个姐妹和一个哥哥" It's like, "I have two sisters and a brother."
——哇。等一等。-我要走了 - Whoa. Hold on. - Well, I'm out of here.
-我要走了-你知道我刚说什么吗? - I'm out of here. - You know what I just say?
我只和三个孩子中的老大约会。 I only date only children or the oldest of three.
他们说，“行使你的选择权。” They say, "Exercise your options."
就像肌肉一样。 It's like a muscle.
-选项就像肌肉。-是的。 - Options are like a muscle. - Yeah.
有些人虚弱、萎缩，他们不明白——如何行使他们的选择权。-是的。 Some people are weak and atrophied, and they don't understand - how to exercise their options. - Yeah.
我的选择是强壮的，强壮的和浮夸的。 My options are burly and strong and turgid.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
人们说像我们这样的人害怕承诺。 People say guys like us are afraid of commitment.
不。我们害怕承诺一些我们无法逃避的事情。 No. We're afraid of commitment to something we can't get out of.
没有什么是害怕承诺的。 There's no such thing as fear of commitment.
害怕承诺就害怕后悔。 Fear of commitment is fear of regret.
百分百。或者害怕亲密。 Hundred percent. Or fear of intimacy.
拜托，我跟每个人都很亲密。 Please, I'm intimate with everybody.
你有没有想过，如果你真的在某人身上找到了更深层次的东西，那是否会更有意义? Do you ever wonder, if you did find something deeper with somebody, if that would somehow be more meaningful?
有时我做。 I do sometimes.
就像现在，我随便跟六七个不同的女人约会。 Like right now, I'm casually dating, like, six or seven different women.
但我内心深处很想知道，和两三个人认真约会会是什么感觉。 But I do wonder, deep down, what it would be like to seriously date two or three.
即使我不了解你，我也比任何人都更了解你。 Even when I don't understand you, I understand you better than I understand anybody.
——倍。-我喜欢我们一起出去玩。 - Hundred percent. - I love when we hang out.
如果有人在录这段视频，我的播客应该是这样的。 This is like, if someone were recording this, that's what my podcast should be.
我的身下现在应该有一个低音提琴在演奏。 There should be, like, the sound of a stand-up bass playing under me right now.
好吧，我想到一个。 Okay, I got one.
"褐发兰登书屋派对。" "Brunette Random House Party."
兰登书屋，出版商? "Random House," the publisher?
还是"随机之家"比如随机之家派对? Or "random house," like a random house party?
哦,”艾米丽时尚。” Oh, "Emily Vogue."
我想用"卡拉"这个问号 Uh, I'm gonna go with "Kara question mark"
因为今晚我想让宇宙给我一个惊喜。 'cause I feel like letting the universe surprise me tonight.
-活在这个时代真好。——倍。 - What a time to be alive. - Hundred percent.
——倍。——倍。 - Hundred percent. - Hundred percent.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
——倍。——倍。 - Hundred percent. - Hundred percent.
我想明白了。 I figured it out.
算出什么? Figured what out?
美国。 America.
好的。 Okay.
我知道你在笑，但我有个点子你一定会喜欢。 I know you're laughing, but I have a pitch you're really gonna like.
美国是分裂的，但原因不是我们想的那样。 America is divided, but it's not for the reason that we think.
我们认为美国是按地理位置划分的 We think that America's divided by geography:
红色州，蓝色州，城市，国家。 red state, blue state, city, country.
我们错过了一些更深刻的东西。 We're missing something far more profound.
美国不是被空间分割的。 America isn't divided by space.
美国被时间分割。 America is divided by time.
-我们不再活在当下。 -We don't live in the moment anymore. -Mm.
既然我们可以生活在任何有记录的时刻，我们为什么要这么做呢? And why would we, when we can live in any moment that's ever been recorded?
当我们体验到我们真正喜欢的东西时，我们的本能会以某种方式把它归档以便以后使用。 And when we experience something we really love, our overwhelming instinct is to somehow file it away for later.
这很有趣。 That's interesting.
我们不在电影院看电影。 We don't watch movies in the theater.
电视播出的时候我们不看。 We don't watch TV when it airs.
我们甚至不会同时聊天，因为我们会发短信。 We don't even have conversations at the same time because we text.
你发短信的时候，我可以说"嗨" And when you text, I can say, "Hi,"
你可以马上说“嗨”回来，或者一分钟。——或者从来没有。 and you could say "Hi" back in a second, - or a minute. - Or never.
或者永远不要，因为是你，你忙着制作美国最大的播客，这是我的观点，因为我们都生活在我们自己的个性化时代。 Or never 'cause it's you and you're too busy producing the biggest podcast in America, which is kind of my point because we're all living in our own individualized times.
这就是为什么我们生活在分裂的时代。 That's why we're living in divided times.
这是……我很喜欢这样。哦。 That's... I like that. Ooh.
-你喜欢吗?-是的。 - You like that? - Yeah.
你觉得怎么样?你觉得这是个故事吗? So, what do you think? Do you think that's a story?
这是一个理论。 It's a theory.
-理论就是故事。-不，理论不是故事。 - A theory is a story. - No, a theory is not a story.
是的，当它是关于一个想法的时候。 Yes, it is when it's about an idea.
美国是一种理念。 And America is an idea.
所以才这么棒。 That's what makes it so great.
-所以，如果你…-不，美国是它的人民。 - So, if you're... - No, America is its people.
所以才会这么糟糕。 That's what makes it so fucked up.
嘿。不是每个纽约的白人都需要播客。 Hey. Not every white guy in New York needs to have a podcast.
您有已验证的复选标记。 You have the verified check mark.
你得到了《纽约客》的职位。 You got the New Yorker position.
我想要更多。 I want something more.
我不只是想当作家。 I don't just want to be a writer.
我…我想成为一个声音。 I... I want to be a voice.
虽然听起来很傻，但我关心美国。 As dorky as it sounds, I care about America.
不是用拉娜·德雷那种褪色的方式。 And not in that faded Lana Del Rey way.
现在我看到它分崩离析，而我们只是站在角落里，好像在嘲笑它，你知道吗? And now I see it falling apart, and we're just standing in the corner, like, making fun of it, you know?
我想讲个故事…连接。 I'd like to try to tell some story that... connects.
好吧,好吧。好吧,然后……让我帮你连接。 Okay, okay. Well, then... let me help you connect.
你对美国的看法……即使它们很好，对吗? With all your ideas about America... Even if they're good, right?
你得把它们放进故事里，因为美国人喜欢听故事。 You gotta put 'em in a story 'cause Americans listen to stories.
因为美国人也是人。 'Cause Americans are people.
他们不是…的想法。 They're not... ideas.
——你的身体。-是的。 - You're-you're here. - Yeah.
你需要留在这里。 You need to be here.
明白了吗? Does that make sense?
百分百。 Hundred percent.
我是罗宾·狄龙，这里是美国时刻。 I'm Robin Dillon, and this is American Moment.
对于西蒙大拿州飞蝇钓鱼活动的组织者 To the organizers of the Western Montana fly-fishing...
-嗨。-嗨。 - Hi. - Hey.
你换了发型。 You changed your hair.
-是的，你注意到了。——当然。 - Yeah, you noticed. - Of course.
图书界怎么样? How's the book world?
什么? The what?
哦,什么都没有。要喝点什么吗? Uh, nothing. Uh, can I get you a drink?
——是的。——太棒了。 - Yes. - Great.
我能为你做点什么? Um, what can I make you?
你能来点白葡萄酒吗? Um, can you do, like, a white wine?
嗯,当然。 Um, sure.
我得开瓶喝才行。 I have to open a bottle for that.
哦,没关系。打开它。 Oh, that's okay. Open it.
我只想来一杯。 I only want, like, one glass.
——你好吗?——本? - Hello? - Ben?
是的。喂? Yeah. Hello?
这是你这辈子接到的最糟糕的电话。 This is the worst phone call you're ever gonna get in your life.
哦,我的上帝。 Oh, my God.
你的女朋友死了。 Your girlfriend's dead.
我很抱歉。Wh……你说什么? I'm sorry. Wh... What did you say?
她死了。 She's dead.
不，不，是第一部分。 No, no, the first part.
你的女朋友。 Your girlfriend.
是的,我很抱歉。 Yeah, I'm sorry.
嗨,我不…我不明白你的意思。 Hey, I don't... I don't understand.
我知道。我知道，我知道。 I know. I know, I know.
我们也搞不懂。 We can't make no sense of it either.
这是谁? Who is this?
我是泰·肖。 This is Ty Shaw.
艾比的弟弟。 Abby's brother.
嗯，嘿，我不…我真不知道该说什么。 Um, hey, I don't... I don't really know what to say.
我知道，我知道这很难接受。 Oh, I know, I know this must be so hard to process.
我很抱歉。 I'm so sorry.
艾比跟我们说了很多你的事。 Abby told us so much about you.
艾比。 Abby.
哦,我的上帝。 Oh, my God.
艾比。 Abby.
艾比是谁? Who's Abby?
嗯,一些女孩。嗯…- - - - - -那是谁?——呃,一些…我们确实一起出去玩了几次。 Uh, some girl. Um... - Who's that? - Uh, some... We definitely hung out a few times.
我就不会…葬礼是星期天。 I-I wouldn't have... Funeral's Sunday.
哦,我的上帝。我,呃…你能告诉我哪里可以送花吗? Oh, my God. I'm, uh... Can you tell me where I can send flowers?
没必要送花啊，本。 Oh, there's no need to send flowers, Ben.
哦，不，不，不，不，不。 Oh, no, no, no, no, no.
我一定会送花的。 I'm absolutely gonna send flowers.
告诉我地址就行了。 Just, uh, you tell me the address.
看你能不能发短信给我。 See if you can text it to me.
如果你真想去，机场旁边有家花店。 If you really want, there's a flower shop by the airport.
我去接你的时候顺便过去看看。 We'll just swing by there when I pick you up.
你什么时候来接我? When you pick me up?
哦,嘿。 Uh, hey.
我的精神会在那里。 I will be there in spirit.
精神航空公司。对的,男人。 Spirit Airlines. Right, man.
这是个不错的选择。 That's a great choice.
告诉我是哪个航班就行了。 You just let me know what flight.
呃，嘿，呃，我…这只是…我做不到。 Uh, hey, uh, I... This is just... I can't do this.
我们都做不到。 None of us can do this.
不是一个人。 Not alone.
你们都有自己的未来。 Y'all had your whole future ahead of you.
好的。 Okay.
好了,别哭了。 Okay, don't cry.
我的意思是，不，哭。哭了起来。 I mean, no, cry. Cry.
-嗯，当然。-哦,上帝。 - Um, of course. - Oh, God.
与你的情绪保持联系。嗯…真不敢相信我们要经历这些。 Be in touch with your emotions. Um... I can't believe we have to go through this.
好的。好的。嗯,嗨。 Okay. All right. Um, hey.
提醒我一下你们到底在哪。 Remind me where you guys are exactly.
你以前去过德州吗? Well, you've been to Texas before?
德克萨斯州。 Texas.
你在奥斯汀附近吗? Okay, are you near Austin?
不，我们不在奥斯汀附近。 No, we're not near Austin.
——达拉斯?-达拉斯不是德克萨斯。 - Dallas? - Dallas ain't Texas.
——休斯顿?-休斯顿是另一个国家。 - Houston? - Houston's another country.
你为什么不直接告诉我…你听说过阿比林吗?这座城市。 Why don't you just tell me where... Have you heard of Abilene? The city.
没听说过艾柏林，没有。 Never heard of Abilene, no.
艾比林离达拉斯大约三小时车程。 Well, Abilene is about three hours from Dallas.
好的。 Okay.
我们离艾柏林有五个小时的路程。 And we're five hours from Abilene.
女士们,先生们… Ladies and gentlemen...
嘿。嗨。 Hey. Hi.
当她还是个小女孩的时候，她可能很难对付…… And while she could be quite a handful when she was a girl...
真不敢相信我在用过去时谈论我女儿。 I can't believe I'm talking about my daughter in the past tense.
她住在纽约。 She was living in New York.
她在音乐中找到了自己的声音。 She was finding her voice in music.
她终于找到了真爱。 And she finally found love.
本Manalowitz。 Ben Manalowitz.
一个成功的作家和纽约杂志的定期供稿人。 A successful writer and a regular contributor to New York Magazine.
《纽约客》。 The New Yorker.
但即使他很成功，他也一直尊重我们的女儿。 But even with all his success, he always respected our girl for who she was.
“妈妈，”她说，“你知道他是怎么把我存进手机里的吗? "Mama," she said, "you know how he has me saved in his phone?
德州”。 Texas."
虽然她的生命很短暂，但她找到了自己的声音，找到了爱。 Well, as short as her life was, she found her voice, and she found love.
这就是全部了，对吧? And that's all there is, right?
这是正确的。 That's right.
让我们听听本是怎么说的。 Let's hear from Ben.
——继续。-继续，本。 - Go ahead. - Go on, Ben.
不,我不能。 No, I couldn't.
——谢谢。-没问题。 - Thank you. - You got it.
-兄弟，上来。-请说点什么。 - Brother, come up. - Please say something.
去那里。 Get up there.
的父亲。先生。 Father. Sir.
我从没想过会陷入这样的境地。 I never expected to be in a situation like this.
我敢肯定我们都没有。 I'm sure none of us did.
我要是多了解她一点就好了。 I wish I had known her better.
我真希望能多陪陪她。 I wish I had spent more time with her.
我相信大家都觉得……现在。 I'm sure all of us feel that... right now.
是的。 Yes.
她喜欢音乐。 She loved music.
我知道。我知道。 I know that. I know that.
她喜欢音乐。 She loved music.
是的。 Yeah.
和…她将永远是我们心中的一首歌。 And... she will always be a song in our hearts.
“我们心中的歌。” "Song in our hearts."
唷。你那句话差点把我伤透了。 Phew. You damn near broke me with that one.
♪就是那八秒的机会♪ ♪ It's those eight-second chances ♪
和女牛仔的目光 ♪ And cowgirl glances ♪
♪这是血液和荣耀，宝贝，这就是我们驰骋的原因…♪ ♪ It's the blood and the glory, baby, that's why we ride... ♪
现在，我不知道你怎么想，但是…我知道时间不长，但我觉得我和你，我们有真正的感情。 Now, I don't know about you, but... I know it hasn't been long, but I feel like me and you, we got a real bond.
有点像家人。 Kind of like family.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
哇。 Wow.
百分之一百? A hundred percent?
是的。 Yeah.
是的。我今天感觉和你们很亲近。 Yeah. I felt really close to you guys today.
别这么说了。 Don't just say that to say it.
-是的。-我就知道 - Yeah. - I knew it.
艾柏林没有死。 Abilene just didn't die.
她是被谋杀的。 She was murdered.
我们两个要为她报仇。 And the two of us are gonna avenge her death.
什么? What?
你和我，我们要找到杀她的凶手，报仇雪恨。 You and me, we're gonna track her killer down and deliver vengeance.
好吧，没人说有凶手。 Okay, nobody said anything about a killer.
过量? An overdose?
在油田的派对上? At a party in an oil field?
是的。这女孩一辈子连止痛药都没吃过。 Yeah. The girl never took so much as an Advil in her life.
你知道的。你比任何人都了解她。 You know that. You know her better than anybody.
你报警了吗? Did you call the police about this?
在德州，我们不打911。 In Texas, we don't dial 911.
连火灾都没有吗? Not even for, like, a fire?
火警或救护车都可以。 Fire or ambulance, fine.
你认为是谁干的? Who do you think did it?
我有一些推测。 I got a couple theories.
卡特尔。我注意到一个墨西哥黑帮成员。 Cartels. Mexican gangbanger I got my eyes on.
我是说，这只是个开始。 I mean, this is just the beginning.
它深。 It goes deep.
这是基于什么呢? And what's this based on?
的直觉。 Gut.
正确的。这背后是什么呢? Right. What's behind that though?
内脏后面什么都没有。 Ain't nothing behind gut.
一切都是内脏的作用。否则，你是谁? Gut's behind everything else. Otherwise, who are you?
我觉得这事应该交给警方处理。 I really think this is something for the police.
是的。你说警察好像到处都一样。 Yeah. You talk about the police like it's just the same everywhere.
就像警察是麦当劳，正义是蛋松饼。 Like the police is, um, McDonald's and justice is an Egg McMuffin.
我们没有警察。 We don't have the police.
我们有迈克和丹。 We got Mike and Dan.
你和我，我们是她生命中的男人。 You and me, we were the men in her life.
他们惹错了两个人。 And they fucked with the wrong two guys.
好的。嗯…就像个人的界限，每个人都是不同的。 Okay. Um... So, as, like, a personal boundary, like, everybody's different.
有些人不吃某些食物。 Some people don't eat certain foods.
你知道,每个人都…-我不会为死亡复仇的——嗯。 You know, everybody... - I don't avenge deaths. - Mm-hmm.
这就是我。 It's just who I am.
我…我又不是活在连姆·尼森的电影里。 I... You know, I don't live in a Liam Neeson movie.
但你看起来有点像连姆·尼森电影里的人。 But you kind of look like a guy from a Liam Neeson movie though.
好的。 Okay.
我想的是哪一个? Which one am I thinking about?
那是辆火车。不,我是……-电视上刚播过。-我不知道。 It-it was a train. No, i-it was... - It was just on TV. - I don't know.
辛德勒的名单。哦,我的上帝。 Schindler's List. Oh, my God.
你看起来像电影里的很多人。 You look like a lot of those guys in that movie.
是的。谢谢。 Yeah. Thanks.
那是我最不喜欢的连姆·尼森的电影。 You know, that was my least favorite Liam Neeson movie.
巨大的唐纳。 Huge downer.
那是一部非常悲伤的电影。 It was a really sad movie.
泰，我知道你很痛苦。 Ty, I know that you're in a lot of pain.
是的，先生，我们都是。 Oh, yes, sir. We both are.
你有很多愤怒。 And you have a lot of anger.
该死，我在请求你的帮助。 Goddamn it, I'm asking you for your help.
如果我们不这么做，就像把她的尸体丢在沙漠里一辈子一样。 If we don't do this, it's like leaving her body out in the middle of that desert for the rest of our lives.
我一见到你就知道了。 I know it the minute I saw you.
因为心看得见心。 'Cause heart sees heart.
留在这里，和我一起为艾比报仇。 Stay down here and avenge Abby's death with me.
那将会是一个怎样的故事。 Oh, what a story that would be.
这是袖珍表盘吗? Is this a pocket dial?
我有个故事。 I have a story.
-能等等吗?——没有。 - Can it wait? - No.
我在德州。我在参加完葬礼回来的路上。 I'm in Texas. I'm on my way back from a funeral.
哦,我的上帝。我很抱歉。 Oh, my God. I'm so sorry.
没关系。不是我亲近的人。 It's okay. It's not someone I was close to.
但你飞去德州买的? But you flew to Texas for it?
嗯,是的。 Uh, yes.
是一个我上过几次的女孩。 Uh, it was a girl I hooked up with a few times.
你飞去德州参加一个随便勾搭的人的葬礼? You flew to Texas to attend the funeral of a random hookup?
她的家人认为我们比我更认真。 Her family thought that we were more serious than I did.
你知道吗? Do you know what?
这是一个故事。 This is a story.
——是吗?-是的。 - Yeah? - Yeah.
这是你的。 It's you.
的……你的整个生活方式。 The-the... Your whole way of life.
这是约会，这是勾搭文化。 It's dating, it's hookup culture.
它是如何使断开连接的。 How it enables disconnectedness.
——自私。——没有。 - The selfishness. - No.
的空虚。——没有。 - The emptiness. - No.
——空旷。-我不是这个意思 - The hollowness. - That's not what I meant.
缺乏自我意识。 The lack of self-awareness.
好吧，我不是这个意思。 Okay, that's not what I'm pitching.
你的生活真的很悲惨。 It's really how sad your life is.
好吧，你在耍我。 Okay, now you're fucking with me.
听着，我现在在西德克萨斯州有一家人的女儿死于阿片类药物过量。 Listen, I'm in West Texas where this family just lost their daughter to an opioid overdose.
这很可悲，但也很常见。 That is sad but common.
不过，她哥哥不接受这是吸毒过量。 Except, her brother won't accept it's an overdose.
他说那是一起谋杀案。 He says it was a murder.
基于什么? Based on what?
什么都没有。 Nothing.
这就是故事。 And that's the story.
这是一个存在主义犯罪故事。 This is an existential crime story.
这是《冷血》里的情节，但没有杀手。 This is In Cold Blood, but there are no killers.
这是关于人们无法接受的美国新现实。 This is about a new American reality that people can't accept.
所以，他们发明了这些神话和阴谋，这样他们就可以把自己塑造成英雄，因为……事实太难以接受了。 So instead, they invent these myths and conspiracies so they can cast themselves as heroes because... the truth is too hard to accept.
阿比林的死是关于美国身份认同的死亡，以及寻找替罪羊的需要。 The death of Abilene is about the death of American identity and the need to find someone to blame for it.
这不仅仅是一个关于复仇的故事。 This isn't just a story about vengeance.
这是一个关于复仇的故事。 It's a story about the need for vengeance.
复仇的意义。 The meaning of vengeance.
死白人女孩? Dead white girl?
播客的圣杯。 Holy grail of podcasts.
埃洛伊塞，我真希望我的录音机开着。 Eloise, I wish my recorder were already on.
他已经在说这些疯狂的事情了。 He's saying such crazy things already.
她的哥哥吗? Her brother?
他就是这样一个人物。 He is such a character.
这样你就能接近他的家人了? And you can get close to the family?
我能接近他的家人吗? Can I get close to the family?
他们认为我是她的男朋友。 They think I was her boyfriend.
我的意思是……我参加了她的葬礼，看在上帝的份上。 I mean... I went to her funeral, for God's sake.
那很好。 That's good.
我是说，这很糟糕，但是…但这是好的。 I mean, it's fucked up, but... but it's good for this.
所以呢? So?
好吧，我们试一试。 Okay, let's give it a shot.
哦! Oh!
好吧，告诉我。给我一切。 Okay, talk to me. Give me everything.
和家人待在一起，尽可能接近他们，记录下一切。 Stay with the family, get as close as possible, record everything.
因为你永远不知道什么是重要的。 'Cause you never know what will be important.
我将是你的编辑，所以我将选择-看看有什么。——好的。 I'll be your editor, so I'll pull selects - and see what's there. - Okay.
我会让特蕾西连夜把设备给你，但在此期间用你的手机把报道弄好，注意安全。 I'll have Tracy overnight you the equipment, but just use your phone in the meantime and get the story, stay safe.
你明白了。 You got it.
-不是这个顺序。-按这个顺序。 - Not in that order. - In that order.
西德克萨斯的尘埃就像雨水落在湖面上。 The dust in West Texas settles like rain on a lake.
我在西德克萨斯的天空下，德州明亮的蓝色天空下，在那里我刚刚得知了艾比林·肖的死讯。 I'm under a West Texas sky, bright blue Texan sky, where I've just learned about the death of Abilene Shaw.
我的…一个人……谁住在这里。 My... A person... who lived here.
地狱啊,兄弟。 Hell yeah, brother.
好吧。 All right.
我要和你们一起住几周。 I'm gonna stay with you guys for a couple of weeks.
我会把你认为发生在艾柏林身上的一切都录下来。 I'm gonna record everything that you think happened to Abilene.
——好吗?地狱——是的。那我们就杀了他。 - Okay? - Hell yes. Then we kill him.
不。 No.
我要把它放到播客上…它将在播客平台上播出。 I'm gonna put it on a podcast... and it will be on podcast platforms.
这是他妈的辉煌。 That's fucking brilliant.
-是的。-你真他妈聪明。 - Yeah. - You're fucking smart.
好吧。 All right.
一旦Reddit上的人发现了……他们会为我们杀了他。 Once people on Reddit find out... they'll kill him for us.
好吧。 All right.
嘿,妈妈。 Hey, Mama.
猜猜最后谁回来了。 Guess who came back after all.
本。 Ben.
-嗨。-我的天啊你回来了。 - Hi. - Oh, my God. You came back.
啊…哦。谢谢你！ Ah... Oh. Thank you.
希望我没给你添麻烦 Um, I hope I'm not imposing.
拜托。 Please.
我们餐桌上有个空位子。 We have this empty seat at the table.
我们可以利用一切机会分散注意力。 We can use all the distraction we can get.
你需要什么吗? Can I get you anything?
嗯…只是，无线网络怎么样了? Um... Uh, just, uh, what's the Wi-Fi situation?
哦，它有点喜怒无常……它会。 Oh, it's a little temperamental... it'll kick in.
你之前见过大家吗? Did you have a chance to meet everybody before?
哦,不。 Uh, no.
我很乐意。 I would love to.
-这是Abilene的妹妹Paris。-你好。 -Uh, this is Abilene's sister, Paris. -Hi.
-她24岁，准备25岁——是的。 - She's 24, fixin' to be 25. - Yep.
她会成为一个著名的电影制作人。 She's gonna be a famous filmmaker.
很高兴认识你，帕里斯。 It is a pleasure to meet you, Paris.
快乐。我听说过很多关于你的事。 Pleasure. I've heard so much about you.
我我听说……是的。 I've-I've heard... Yeah.
这是堪萨斯城。 And this is Kansas City.
她17岁，马上就要18岁了。 She's 17, fixin' to be 18.
她会成为一个著名的…著名的。 And she's gonna be a famous... Just famous.
KC，我告诉过你。 KC, I told you.
这些不是我们的价值观。 Those are not our values.
你得是名人才行。 You have to be a famous something.
一个著名的…名人。 A famous... celebrity.
她们真的是你的女儿吗? These are really your daughters?
我是说，你们都可以成为姐妹。 I mean, you all could be sisters.
哦。你真贴心。 Oh. You are so sweet.
你觉得我看起来有这么老吗? You think that I look this fucking old?
这是El Stupido。 And this is El Stupido.
——对不起?-我是艾尔·Stupido。 - Sorry? - This is El Stupido.
你是这么叫他的? That's what you call him?
哦。没关系,本。 Oh. It's okay, Ben.
他不会说西班牙语。 He don't speak Spanish.
还有，你多大了? And, uh, and how old are you?
九个 Nine.
改成10个? Fixin' to be ten?
是的,先生。 Yes, sir.
男孩,来吧。 Boys, come on.
-本，过来坐。——谢谢。 - Ben, come take a seat. - Thank you.
顺便说一句，你的家真漂亮。 You have a lovely home, by the way.
——谢谢。-真的很不错。 - Thank you. - It's really nice.
-这是卡萝奶奶。-是的。 - This is Granny Carole. - Yeah.
奶奶。 Granny for short.
-很高兴见到你，奶奶。-是的。 - Um, nice to meet you, Granny. - Yeah.
谢谢你！嗯…本，跟我们说说你自己吧。 Thank you. Um... So, Ben, tell us about yourself.
你来自一个亲密的家庭吗? Do you come from a close family?
是的。我们关系很好。 Yes. Um, we're very close.
我们不常见面，但我们很亲近。 We don't see each other much, but we're very close.
你来自德克萨斯州吗? You from Texas?
哦。不,我不是。 Oh. No, I'm not.
哦,我很抱歉。 Oh, I'm sorry.
你不是德州人 That you're not from Texas.
-你以前去过德州吗，本?实际上,-是的。 -Have you been to Texas before, Ben? -Yes, actually.
我去过奥斯汀，《南方偏南》的。 I've been to Austin, uh, for South By.
为了什么? For what?
哦，西南偏南是一年一度的节日…不，是哪个乐队的? Uh, oh, South by Southwest is an annual festiv... No, for what band?
你不可能就这么去了。 You don't just go to South By.
你会去看乐队，对吧? You go see a band, don't you?
嗯,嗯,真的。 Uh, well, true.
我参加了一个关于新媒体未来的新闻小组。 I was part of a journalism panel about the future of new media.
——不可思议。-太酷了。 - Amazing. - That's so cool.
-嗯-谢谢——欢迎你。 - Mm. -Thank you. - You're welcome.
嗯,说到。 Um, speaking of.
你介意我录下这顿晚餐吗? Would you mind if I recorded this dinner?
——哦。-现在就录? - Oh. - Record us now?
-是的。地狱——是的。 - Yeah. - Hell yeah.
我们会介意吗? Would we mind?
-我喜欢被录音。——太棒了。太棒了。 - I love being recorded. - Great. Fantastic.
哦,我的上帝。 Oh, my God.
——嘿,微笑。好吧?——太棒了。 - Hey, smile. Okay? - Great.
你想听德州的故事吗? Well, would you want to hear the story of Texas?
——当然。嗯?——去,奶奶。 - Absolutely. -Huh? - Go, Granny.
好的。在这里。 All right. Right here.
——我的天哪。 - My goodness. - Mm. Okay.
1836. 1836.
德州是墨西哥的一部分，由移民和讲英语的白人组成。 Texas is part of Mexico, made up of settlers and English-speaking white folk.
他们不喜欢政府。 And, uh, they didn't like the government.
还有什么新鲜的? What else is new?
德州人想按自己的方式做事。 Them Texans wanted to do things their own way.
还有什么新鲜的? What else is new?
所以，你考虑了所有人最喜欢的两件事，政府和墨西哥人。 So, you take everybody's two favorite things, government and Mexicans.
猜猜会发生什么。 And guess what happens.
——嗯?——继续。 - Huh? - Go on.
——猜。-你应该…在你的文字里。 - Guess. - You should... In your words.
好的。好吧。 All right. All right.
大元帅桑塔·安纳召集了7000名墨西哥士兵在阿拉莫与186名德克萨斯叛军作战。 Well, Generalissimo Santa Anna brung up 7,000 Mexican soldiers to fight against 186 Texan rebels at a place called the Alamo.
德克萨斯人赢了。 And the Texans won.
这是非常鼓舞人心的。 That's very inspiring.
你说什么? Say what?
德州人没有赢，本。 The Texans didn't win, Ben.
你哪里教数学的? They teach math where you from?
186.7,000。 186.7,000.
嗯…7000多了，本。 Um... 7,000 is more, Ben.
这是一场大屠杀。 It was a massacre.
那是无法形容的残忍。 It was unspeakable cruelty.
无法形容的残忍。 Unspeakable cruelty.
我很抱歉。我不知道你没赢得阿拉莫。 I'm sorry. I had no idea you didn't win the Alamo.
嗯…我觉得你们经常谈论这件事。 Um... I feel like you guys talk about it a lot.
谁是“春分美女”? Who's "Equinox Girl Cute"?
嗯,一个朋友。 Um, a friend.
谁是“巴黎评论派对亚洲人”? Who's "Paris Review Party Asian"?
——对不起。嗯…-非常好的阅读。 - Excuse me. Um... - Very good reading.
我,呃…无线网肯定是刚打开的。 Let me, uh... The Wi-Fi must have just kicked on.
“娜塔莉熊”是谁? Who's "Natalie Bumble"?
-让我…-谁是凯蒂·拉亚? - Um, let-let me just... - Who's "Katie Raya"?
-让我穿上…——莱雅? - Let me put that on... - Raya?
我把它调成飞行模式。 Let me put that on airplane mode.
我以为拉亚应该是专一的。 I thought Raya was supposed to be exclusive.
你觉得这个地方怎么样，本? So what do you think of this place, Ben?
我爱它。 I love it.
-你在开玩笑吧?你是认真的吗?你爱它吗? - Are you joking? - Are you serious? You love it?
你来自纽约。 You're from New York City.
-这里什么都没发生。-是的。 -Literally nothing happens here. -Yeah.
嗯,嗯…我是说，这有点……——嗯?——你知道的。 Well, um... I mean, it is a little... - Hmm? - You know.
黯淡。-拜托，这不公平。 -Bleak. -Come on, that's not fair.
-我们刚发现一个目标。——请问?你怎么敢? - We just got a Target. - Excuse me? How dare you?
你知道我们的足球队有多棒吗? Do you know how fucking good our football team is?
-这是我们的小镇。-好吧，听着，我不知道去哪里…在这里降落。嗯…本，关于这个地方，有些事你应该知道。-是的。 -This is our town. -Okay, look, I don't know where to... where to land here. Um... Ben, there's probably something you should know - about this place. - Yeah.
这是地球上最，最悲惨，最荒凉的地方。 This is the most, uh, wretched, godforsaken stretch of land on the face of the earth.
我永远不会离开。 And I'd never leave.
你明白我的意思吗? You know what I mean?
是的。这就是我对Twitter的感觉。 Yeah. That's how I feel about Twitter.
-嗯-本是个记者 - Mm. - See, Ben's a journalist.
那里最好的一个。 One of the finest there is.
他为《纽约杂志》撰稿。 He writes for the New York Magazine.
《纽约客》。是的。 New Yorker. Yep.
他会帮我们找出艾柏林到底发生了什么。 And he's gonna help us find out what really happened to Abilene.
我是说我们出去找个。45岁，但本给了我们一个全新的视角。 I was saying we go out and settle with a . 45, but Ben gives a whole new perspective to the situation.
泰，点45口径的枪是解决不了这种问题的。 Ty, you can't solve something like this with a .45.
这不像一个人那么简单。 It's not as simple as one person.
这是一个完整的系统，孩子。 It's a whole system, son.
告诉我们你是什么意思，奶奶。 Tell us what you mean, Granny.
这是社会的崩溃，就是这样。 It's the breakdown of society, is what it is.
这是学校系统的崩溃-政府。 It's the breakdown of the school system, - the government. - Mm.
是制药公司。 It's the pharmaceutical companies.
这是家庭和传统的崩溃。 It's the breakdown of the family and tradition.
艾比林的死有很多人要负责。——这是真的。 Oh, there's a whole lot of people responsible - for what happened to Abilene. - That's true.
——是的,女士。——阿门。 - Yes, ma'am. - Amen.
我认为这是非常明智的。 I think that's very wise.
你需要一把12口径的枪，几个急救器。 You're gonna need a 12-gauge, couple of ARs.
——没有。是的。-威森自动手枪。 - No. -Yep. - A Wesson automatic.
-不不不-为了安全还要配把枪。 - No, no, no. - And a sidearm for safety.
——是的。完全正确。-我们不会那么做的 - Yep. Exactly. - We're not doing that.
哦,我们不是吗?是的。 Oh, we're not? Yeah.
我没想到你有这个胆。 I didn't think you had the balls.
你会帮我们吗，本? Are you gonna help us, Ben?
你知道,嗯…有些事情是我擅长的。 You know, um... There's some things I'm good at.
我擅长提出正确的问题。 I'm good at asking the right questions.
我很擅长让人开口。 I'm good at getting people to talk.
我特别擅长在看似不相干的元素之间建立主题联系，并用它来阐述一个更大的观点或理论。 And I'm especially good at drawing thematic connections between seemingly disparate elements and using that to illustrate a larger point or theory.
所以，无论谁或任何东西对艾柏林的遭遇负责，我会找到这个人或这个广义的社会力量，我会给它下定义。 So, whoever or whatever is responsible for what happened to Abilene, I will find this person or this generalized societal force, and I will define it.
我将定义它。 I'll define it.
祝福你的心。 Bless your heart.
我想我们现在有客房了。 I guess we have a guest room now.
泰。 Ty.
好吧，好好休息。 Well, rest up good.
我们明早见，开始解决这个问题。 We'll meet in the morning and start to solve this.
是的。 Yeah.
明早见。 See you in the morning.
-晚安，泰-晚安 - Good night, Ty. - Good night.
早上好。 Good morning.
是的,就是这样。什么……? Yeah, that's it. What else...?
-我能说这证明了很多吗?-是的。 - Can I say it proves a lot? - Yeah.
我要在这里稍作休息，在此期间，我希望你们能在这个漫长而重要的会员运动中致电支持我们电台。——谢谢。 I'm gonna take a short break here, and during this break, I hope you'll call and support this station during this long, important - membership drive. - Thanks.
我们有一些很棒的免费礼物要送给你，我说的不只是咖啡杯。 We have some great free gifts to offer you, and I'm not just talking coffee mugs.
本，这里的生活有两个版本。 Well, Ben, there's really two versions of life out here.
繁荣时期，每个人都很富有，很忙。 Boom times, everybody's rich and busy.
就像一场盛大的派对。 It's like one big party out here.
然后萧条来了。 And then the bust comes.
这里就像两个不同的地方。 It's really like two different places out here.
要么繁荣，要么萧条。 It's always boom or bust.
现在是哪一种? Which is it right now?
有点。 Kinda in between.
是的。 Yeah.
说实话，介于两者之间。 Kinda in between, to tell you the truth.
好的。 Okay.
你这个…——离开。——爬。这就是我们的蠕虫。 You son of a... - Get off. - Crawl. There's our worm.
哦，你喜欢高高在上。 Oh, you like being on top.
——离开。是的。——哇! - Get off. Yeah. - Whoo!
这家伙吗? This the guy?
是的。 Yep.
嗯。 Hmm.
让我帮你省点时间:桑切洛。 Let me save you some time: Sancholo.
Sancholo。Sancholo。 Sancholo. Sancholo.
Sancholo是什么? What's Sancholo?
那个杀了艾柏林的人。 The guy who killed Abilene.
一个墨西哥毒贩。 A Mexican drug dealer.
邪恶的混蛋。 Evil motherfucker.
你能想到的，他都有。 You name it, he's got it.
不过我对他的价格不太满意。 Not crazy about his prices though.
你知道谁杀了艾柏林吗? So, you know who killed Abilene?
是的,先生。 Yes, sir.
你报警了吗? Did you call the police about it?
迈克和丹吗? Mike and Dan?
那些懒惰的fucktards。 Those lazy fucktards.
一切都是一个意外。 Everything's an accident.
枪支意外。 Gun accident.
哦,驾车事故。 Uh, driving accident.
我从小就认识艾比林了。 I've known Abilene since we were knee-high to a grasshopper.
她连止痛药都没碰过，然后，突然间，他们发现了这个天使，这个天使，死于羟考酮过量在他开的派对上! She never touched so much as an Advil, and-and then, out of the blue, they find this angel, this angel, dead of an oxy OD at a party he threw!
哦，你让我暖和起来了。 Ooh, you're getting me warmed up.
他从中学起就对她着迷了。 He's been obsessed with her since middle school.
是的。他每天晚上都给家里打电话。 Yep. He'd call the house every night.
他们以前会打几个小时的电话。 They used to be on the phone for hours.
反正他也只是其中的一部分。 He's just a piece of it anyway.
它太大了，无法理解。 It's too big to understand.
你和毒品贩子，贩毒集团，恋童癖在床上纠缠不清。——嗯。 You got deep state in bed with pill pushers, - cartels, pedos. - Uh-huh.
——法律。——怎样,……嘿,嘘。嘿。 - The law. - How, wha... Hey, shh. Hey.
你也是其中的一份子。 And you're a piece of it, too.
我很想和你提到的一些角色聊聊。 So, um, I'd love to talk to some of the characters you mentioned.
迈克和丹吗?Sancholo吗? Mike and Dan? Sancholo?
他肯定在霍利斯顿的牛仔竞技会上。 Oh, he's gotta be at the rodeo in Holliston.
毫无疑问。 No doubt.
在那儿，还有之后的下等酒馆。 There and the honky-tonk, too, afterwards.
-那是毒贩最擅长的地方。 -That's where a drug dealer can do their best business. -Mm.
因为每个人都去看牛仔表演。 'Cause everybody goes to the rodeo.
白色,墨西哥人。 White, Mexicans.
你真的想和他一起为她报仇吗? You really want to avenge her with him?
我就像你的兄弟一样。 I'm like a brother to you.
他就像个姐夫。 Well, he's like a brother-in-law.
哦,来吧。 Oh, come on.
本，你打过架吗? Ben, you ever been in a fight?
你是指肢体冲突还是网络冲突? You mean like a physical fight or like an online skirmish?
我得到了他。 I got him.
连苍蝇都不会伤害的，对吧，爬虫? Crawl wouldn't hurt a fly, would you, Crawl?
我从来没有理解过关于苍蝇的那种说法。 I never understood that expression about flies.
是啊，我想杀苍蝇，但什么样的变态会伤害苍蝇? Yeah, I'd kill a fly, but what kind of sick fuck would hurt a fly?
让它感到疼痛?嗯? Make it feel pain? Hmm?
你根本不知道自己在哪，对吧? You don't have any idea where you are, do you?
嗯? Hmm?
要我给你看地图吗? Want me to show you a map?
欢迎来到德州。 Welcome to Texas.
你在这里。 You are here.
早上,KC。 Morning, KC.
嘿。 Hey.
你想喝点咖啡吗? Uh, would you like some coffee?
——确定。-你怎么看? - Sure. - How do you take it?
在嘴里吗? In the mouth?
好吧，跟我说说你喜欢的地方。 All right, tell me something that you love about where you live.
——Whataburger, !——喔。 - Whataburger! - Whoo.
——哦。-是的。——好了,好了。 - Oh. -Yeah. - Okay, great.
嗯，跟我说说。 Um, tell me about it.
-你想现在就走吗?-是的，我们走。 - You want to go right now? - Yeah, let's go.
——嗯…嗯…我准备好了。 - Uh... Uh... - I'm ready.
你想要…-就，不，就，呃，告诉我。 -You want... -Just, no, just, uh, tell me about it.
你会喜欢Whataburger的，Ben。 You're gonna love Whataburger, Ben.
-这是最好的。-是什么让它成为最好的? - Oh, it's the best. - What makes it the best?
不管你在哪，都有Whataburger。 Wherever you are, there's a Whataburger.
是的。它总是在那里。 Yeah. It's always right there.
好的。当你到了那里，你喜欢那里的什么?你得到了什么? Okay. And then when you get there, what do you like about it? What do you get?
-随你便。-它总是在那里。 - Whatever you want. - It's always right there.
你想点什么就点什么，本。 You could order whatever you want, Ben.
没错，但有很多地方都是这样。 Right, but there are a lot of places like that.
假设有一家麦当劳，一家汉堡王，一家索尼克和一家Whataburger。 So, let's say there is a McDonald's, a Burger King, a Sonic and a Whataburger all lined up.
你去哪一家? Which one do you go to?
Whataburger ! Whataburger!
对的,正确的。为什么? Right, right. Why?
因为它就在那里! Because it's right there!
是的，但是它们都在那里。 Yes, but they're all right there.
在这种情况下，它们都在这里。 In this scenario, they're all right there.
你从什么汉堡店得到了什么? So, what do you get out of Whataburger?
什么对你更好? What makes it better to you?
-你要什么…——本。 - What are you getting... - Ben.
问你为什么喜欢Whataburger就像问你为什么喜欢圣诞节或夏夜或你为什么喜欢你的狗一样。 Asking why you love Whataburger is like asking why you love Christmas or a summer night or why you love your dog.
我是说，你可以指出原因，但原因不是重点。 I mean, you could point to the reasons, but the reasons aren't really the point.
你就是爱它，爱就是这样。 You just love it, and that's how love works.
我要去买点当地的好东西。 I'm on my way to get what could be some good local color.
那是阿比林录小样的地方。 It's the place Abilene recorded some demos.
我要去昆汀·塞勒斯音乐工厂。 I'm heading towards the Quentin Sellers Music Factory.
在艺术小镇玛法的一个地方，在那里……人们追求音乐明星的梦想。 A place in Marfa, the arts town, where... people pursue their dreams of musical stardom.
他的座右铭是“从2018年开始让梦想成真”。 His motto is "making dreams come true since 2018."
埃洛伊塞，如果你有…如果你能放一段丽贝卡·布莱克的歌《星期五》 Eloise, if you have, um... if you can play a clip of that, um, Rebecca Black song, "Friday,"
在这里会很有趣。 that would be really funny here.
我打赌玩这个很便宜。 I bet it's cheap to play.
对，对， ♪ Yeah, yeah ♪
是的♪♪ ♪ Yeah ♪
好的。 Okay.
-嗨。-嗨。 - Hi. - Hi.
音乐是什么? What is music?
比如唱歌之类的。 Like, singing and stuff.
是的,这是正确的。 Yeah, that's right.
让我们后退一步。 Let's take a step back.
我想和你分享一个想法。 I want to share an idea with you.
没有比宇宙如何形成更深奥的争论了。 There's no argument more profound than how the universe came into existence.
-哦,上帝。-我们在这里是因为上帝还是科学? - Oh, God. - Are we here because of God or science?
我的意思是，从本质上讲，这是最基本的问题。 I mean, it is, by its very nature, the most fundamental question.
但有一件事大家都同意。 But there's one thing that everyone agrees on.
那就是上帝是否宣称"要有光" And that is whether it was God declaring, "Let there be light,"
或者一个无限的能量粒子在大爆炸中爆发。 or an infinite particle of energy bursting forth in the big bang.
每个人，我是说每个人，都同意宇宙始于一种声音。 Everyone, and I mean everyone, agrees that the universe started with a sound.
为什么我称自己为唱片制作人? Why do I call myself a record producer?
我不知道。 I don't know.
是啊，我们现在都不录唱片了。 Yeah, I mean, we don't even make records anymore.
我们在这里录的不是你的唱片。 What we're recording here isn't your record.
这是你的声音……记录从时间的第一个时刻开始。 It's your sound... on the record that started with the very first moment in time.
所以当你唱这首歌的时候… So when you sing this song...
我想让你思考你所做的是如何记录你在这个世界上的时间的。 I want you to think about how what you're making is the record of your time here on this earth.
它是你用生命去抓的声音……在宇宙的记录上。 It's the sound that you scratch with your life... on the record of the universe.
——好吗?——好的。 - Okay? - Okay.
我在克莱尔家下班 ♪ I finished my shift at Claire's ♪
♪爬上那些陡峭的商场楼梯♪ ♪ Climbed up those steep mall stairs ♪
♪还有无处可去的痛苦 ♪ And the pain of having nowhere to go ♪
♪刺穿了我灵魂的皮肤♪ ♪ Pierced the skin of my soul ♪
♪当我坐在台阶上♪ ♪ As I sat on the steps ♪
等啊等啊 ♪ And waited and waited ♪
♪没有人能送我回家。♪ ♪ For no one to take me home. ♪
是的。 Yeah.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
我把这个地方叫做“工厂”。 I call this place the Factory.
-你知道，在安迪·沃霍尔的工厂之后。嗯。 -You know, after Andy Warhol's Factory. -Hmm.
这里的大多数人认为这是参考了C+C音乐工厂。 Most people around here think it's a reference to C+C Music Factory.
说实话，我觉得沃霍尔会喜欢的，但是…是的,真的。是的。 Which, honestly, I-I think Warhol would've loved, but... Yeah, actually. Yeah.
我来自这里。 I'm from out here.
我在纽黑文上的大学。 I went to college in New Haven.
我在波士顿上过学。 Oh, I went to school in Boston.
是啊，我想过住在那里，但这里需要这样的东西。 Yeah, I thought about staying there, but this is the place that needs something like this.
问题不在于人们不聪明。 The problem isn't that people aren't smart.
问题是他们确实是。 The problem is that they are.
如果风景是这样的，人们都很无聊，你就不会有这个问题了。 If the landscape is like this, a-and people were just boring, you wouldn't have this problem.
问题是，你得到了所有这些明亮的，有创意的灯，却无处插入他们的能量。 The problem is, you get all these bright, creative lights and nowhere to plug in their energy.
所以它被引向阴谋论，毒品和暴力。 And so it gets channeled into conspiracy theories and drugs and violence.
现在你最喜欢的音乐艺术家是谁? Who are your favorite music artists right now?
嗯…-我能猜一下吗?-是的。 Um... - Can I take a guess? - Yeah.
你喜欢播放列表。 You're a playlist guy.
这是什么意思? What does that mean?
当一些电脑根据你最喜欢的歌曲向你推荐一堆，然后根据你最喜欢的歌曲再推荐一堆。-对。 When some computer recommends you a bunch of songs based on your favorites, and a bunch more -based on your favorites of those. -Right.
所以你在听一堆音乐-我是说，你真的喜欢…-是的。 So you're listening to a bunch of music that, - I mean, you genuinely like... - Yeah.
但你不知道是谁唱的。 But you have no idea who sings it.
这些歌单，就像约会软件里的音乐。 Now, these playlists, it's like the dating app for music.
你没有听到其他人的声音。 You're not hearing other people's voices.
你只是听到自己的声音被回放。 You're just hearing your voice get played back at you.
你怎么能坠入爱河呢? How are you supposed to fall in love?
艺术曾经掌控着我们。 Art used to be in charge of us.
你以前买一整张专辑都不知道里面会有什么歌。 You used to buy a whole album not even knowing what songs would be on it.
现在我们什么都有。 Now we have everything on demand.
在你的指尖。 At your fingertips.
在碎片。 In pieces.
你觉得那些贴出奥斯卡·王尔德语录的人有一半真的读过他的戏剧吗? You think half the people that are posting quotes from Oscar Wilde have ever actually read one of his plays?
不。 No.
或者上传奥黛丽·赫本的照片真的看过电影? Or posting photos of Audrey Hepburn have actually seen the film that it's from?
——没有。-不可能，对吧? - No. - Not a chance, right?
这是怎么回事? What is that about, huh?
这在文化上和考古学上是一样的。 It's the same in culture as it is in archaeology.
当一个文明崩溃时，只剩下最微小的碎片。 When a civilization collapses, only the tiniest fragments remain.
但我们可以重建它。 But we can build it back again.
如何? How?
录音。 Make recordings.
真实的人。 Real people.
而不是人们认为他们已经知道和想要听到的。 Not what people think that they already know and want to hear.
真实的人。 Real people.
不是一般的刻板印象或一般的歌曲。 Not some generic stereotype or generic song.
真实的人。 Real people.
这个播客到底是关于什么的? What's this podcast about anyway?
嗯，是关于美国的。 Well, um, it's about America.
好的。 Okay.
这是关于我们告诉自己的神话。 It's about the myths that we tell ourselves.
是关于谁的? Who is it about?
我们所有的人。 All of us.
我们讲的每一个故事最终都是关于一个人的。 Every story we tell is ultimately about a person.
阿比林萧。 Abilene Shaw.
阿比林。 Abilene.
是的。 Yeah.
你在做一个关于艾柏林的播客。 You're making a podcast about Abilene.
嗯，有一点关于阿比林。 Well, it's a little about Abilene.
-我想让它更…-不。 -I'm trying to make it more about... -No.
阿比林。 It's about Abilene.
的人。 The person.
这就是你所需要的。 That's all you need.
你觉得她的音乐怎么样? What did you think about her music?
我还没听过呢。 I haven't really heard it.
关上前门。 Shut the front door.
-我是说，我有…-哇，哇，哇，等等 - I mean, I have... - Whoa, whoa, whoa, hold on.
跟我来。 Come with me.
在这儿。 Here it is.
我们所记录的一切。 Everything we ever recorded.
-非常感谢。-你会有收获的。 - Thank you so much. - You're in for a treat.
她不是有个想当歌手的姐姐吗? Doesn't she have a sister who wants to be a singer?
想要出名。 Wants to be famous.
说明她知道自己是个大人物。 Means she knows she's somebody.
只是还不知道是谁。 Just doesn't know who yet.
她需要找到自己的声音。 She needs to find her voice.
那我的声音呢? What about my voice?
我带你去演播室。 I'll put you in the studio.
你想做什么? What do you want to do?
你知道,我……如果我是来咨询我的声音的，我的…我的写作，我的播客，你会告诉我什么? I-I, you know... If I came here for advice about my voice, my... you know, my writing, my podcast, what would you tell me?
我可能会说没有人会写任何东西。 I'd probably say that nobody writes anything.
我们所做的就是翻译。 All we do is translate.
所以如果你被困住了，不知道该说什么……只是听。 So if you ever get stuck and you don't know what to say... just listen.
即使是在沉默中。 Even to the silences.
尽你所能倾听你周围的世界……重复你听到的内容。 Listen as hard as you can to the world around you and... repeat back what you hear.
这个翻译，就是你的声音。 That translation, that's your voice.
我得说，这和我预想的完全不一样。 I gotta say, this is not anything like what I expected to find.
你是来取笑我的，对吧? You came here to make fun of me, didn't you?
——不,不。不。-不，我明白…这是……我明白了。 - No, no. No. - No, I get it's... It's... I get it.
一个荒无人烟的唱片制作人。 Record producer in the middle of nowhere.
你以为我会更傻，更小。 You thought I'd be sillier, smaller.
我明白了。 I get it.
嘿,你看。 Hey, look.
它已经工作了。 It's already working.
你听着。 You listened.
你学到的东西。 You learned.
欢迎来到德州。 Welcome to Texas.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
夕阳把德州照得一片火红。 The setting sun sets Texas afire with a glow.
等等，等等，等等。 Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
这是他妈的漂亮。 It's fucking beautiful.
嗯,你好。 Well, hi.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
当我告诉我妈我要搬到纽约去尝试在音乐界闯出一片天地时，她看着我说"上帝保佑你的心" Uh, when I told my mama that I was gonna move to New York and try and make it in music, she looked at me and she just said, "Bless your heart."
德州的意思是"去你妈的" Which is Texas for, "Fuck you."
爱你,妈妈。 Love you, Mama.
真正的爱情会在最后找到你 ♪ True love will find you in the end ♪
你会发现谁才是你的朋友 ♪ You'll find out just who is your friend ♪
♪不要难过，我知道你会……♪ ♪ Don't be sad, I know you will... ♪
啊…你能帮我把枪打开吗? Ah... Will you help me unjam my gun?
我不知道该怎么做。 I don't know how to do that.
他们应该叫你艾尔·Stupido。 They ought to call you El Stupido.
我可以睡在你的地板上吗? Can I sleep on your floor?
是的。 Yeah.
当然。 Of course.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
我还在开车 ♪ I'm still drivin' ♪
这破车什么时候开?♪ ♪ When's this break gon' come? ♪
♪你支持我的选择♪ ♪ You back my pickin' ♪
拿着大大的定音鼓……♪ ♪ With a big ol' timpani drum... ♪
复仇是一种独特的现象。 Vengeance is a unique phenomenon.
德州发明了复仇。 Texas invented vengeance.
如果你仔细想想，就会发现这毫无意义。 It makes no sense if you think about it.
人类的其他所有原始本能都会带来明显的进化回报。 Every other primal human instinct leads to a clear evolutionary reward.
但复仇是不同的。 But vengeance is different.
这与未来无关。 It's not about the future.
这只是关于过去。 It's only about the past.
大屠杀发生时，我们没有撤退。 When that massacre happened, we didn't retreat.
我们没有说，“让我们都确保我们不会患上墨西哥恐惧症。” We didn't say, "Let's all make sure we don't get Mexiphobia."
我们说:“记住阿拉莫。” We said, "Remember the Alamo."
这与希望无关。 It's not about hope.
是遗憾。 It's about regret.
艾比总是很有创意。 Abby was always creatively minded.
她会和姐妹们一起拍电影。 She would make movies with her sisters.
当然,音乐。 Music, of course.
哦，她有一副美妙的嗓音。 Oh, she had such a beautiful voice.
我真希望能有更多人听到。 I really wish more people could've heard it.
你是一个作家。 You're a writer.
我知道什么? Anything I'd know?
这些都不是 None of this.
你在这里看到的绝望，不是因为缺乏智慧或创造力。 The desperation that you see around here, it's not from a lack of intelligence or creativity.
这是一个多余的。 It's an excess.
我们不是真正的枪支家庭。 We're not really a gun family.
我们有一些用来射击目标的步枪，一些用来安全的手枪，还有……-这与你无关吗?-跟我有什么关系? We have a few rifles for shooting targets, a couple handguns for safety, and... - And that doesn't concern you? - Why would it concern me?
有个剧作家，安东·契诃夫，他说如果在戏剧的第一幕中有一把枪……我能想到的他的任何一部戏剧里都没有枪。 There's this playwright, Anton Chekhov, and he says that if there's a gun in act one of a play... There's no guns in any one of his plays I can think of.
樱桃园,不。万尼亚舅舅,不。 Cherry Orchard, no. Uncle Vanya, no.
其实我对他的剧本不是很熟悉。 I'm not actually that familiar with his plays.
我更熟悉他的理论。 Uh, I'm more familiar with his theory.
但这些感受的利害关系并不是假设的。 But the stakes of these feelings aren't hypothetical.
它们都太真实了。 They're all too real.
我是你们的主持人，本·马纳洛维茨，来自美国广播集团。 I'm your host, Ben Manalowitz, from American Radio Collective.
这是《死白人女孩》。 This is Dead White Girl.
嘿。 Hey.
这很好。 So, this is great.
真的吗? Really?
是的。 Yeah.
我都快被这个家搞晕了。 I'm, like, dorking out over this family.
他们的家庭就像我的家庭。 Their family's like my family.
太好了。太好了。 Great. Great.
你有什么笔记吗? Do you have any notes?
是的。我有几个。 Yeah. I got a couple.
你不是说你喜欢吗。 Thought you said you loved it.
你问我有没有笔记，我有，对吧，菜鸟? You asked if I had notes, and I got notes, okay, first-timer?
好的。好了，好了，你有什么发现? Okay. All right, all right, what do you got?
好吧，你踩到别人的线了，我们需要干净，所以…-是的,没错。 Okay, you're stepping on people's lines, - and we need it clean, so... - Yep, yep.
就像你现在做的一样。不要这样做。 Just like what you're doing right now. Don't do that.
正确的。 Right.
他们说话的时候不要说话。 Don't talk while they're talking.
只是听…或者假装在听。 Just listen... or pretend to listen.
好的。还有什么? Okay. What else?
你知道什么能帮助一些人吗? And you know what would help some people?
如果你……如果你……如果你做了，比如，一个无声的笑来怂恿他们。 If you... if you... if you do, like, a silent laugh to egg them on.
你知道，就像…像什么?我失去了你。 You know, like, um... Like what? I lost you.
喜欢……不，我正在做。 Like... No, I'm doing it.
对的,好吧。 Right, okay.
你接下来要去哪里?竞技? Where are you going to next, the... the rodeo?
是的，我的第一次牛仔竞技。 Yep, my first rodeo.
我真的很兴奋。 I'm really excited.
显然，这是一个真实的社会经济截面。 Apparently, it's a real socioeconomic cross section.
是啊，还有马，公牛什么的。 Yeah, and horses and bulls and stuff.
你在做什么吗? You're doing it?
你能看出来吗? Yeah, could you tell?
祝你好运。 Good luck.
好了,本。 All right, Ben.
-你会喜欢这个地方的。-是的。 - You're gonna love this place. - Yeah.
有很多东西可以看，有很多东西可以吸收。 A whole lot to see, lot to take in.
"第四届年度公牛狂欢牛仔保护。" "Fourth Annual Bull Bash Cowboy Protection."
在德州奥伊斯特克里克，为斗牛保护牛仔。——酷。太好了。 Cowboy protection for, uh, bullfighting - in Oyster Creek, Texas. - Cool. Excellent.
还有，你是pitmaster。 And, uh, you're a pitmaster.
是的,先生。 Yes, sir.
你成功的秘诀是什么? And what is the secret to your success?
时间，更多的时间。 Time and more time.
宾果!——10分! Bingo! - Ten points!
哦,是的! Oh, hell yes!
-本，你会喜欢这个的。——好的。 - Ben, you're gonna love this. - All right.
油炸夹馅面包。 Deep-fried Twinkies.
本，你得尝尝这个。 Ben, you gotta try one of these.
——你好,漂亮。——哦!嗨。 - Hello, beautiful. - Oh! Hi.
能给我来一份，二份，三份，四份，五份油炸夹心面包吗? Can I get, uh, one, two, three, four, five deep-fried Twinkies?
能给我们烤一份吗? Uh, can we get one of those grilled?
这是他妈的好。 It's fucking good.
——该死的好。-是的。 - Fucking good. - Yeah.
保持低调，本。 Just keep a low profile, Ben.
我们会找到他的。毫无疑问。 We'll find our man. No doubt.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
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现在，举着六面美丽的德州旗帜，欢迎我们美丽的骑手。 Now, carrying the six beautiful flags of Texas, welcome our beautiful riders.
好了,本。 All right, Ben.
德克萨斯州的六面国旗——是德克萨斯州所属的六个国家。-好的。 The six flags of Texas -are the six countries that Texas has belonged to. -Okay.
-你能说出六个人的名字吗?-美国。 - Can you name all six? - Uh, the United States.
法国，路易斯安那州收购案，西班牙，墨西哥。嗯…嗯,嗯…得克萨斯共和国! Uh, France, Louisiana Purchase, Spain, Mexico. Uh... Um, uh... Republic of Texas!
那是什么,五个? What's that, five?
不错,兄弟。不坏。 Not bad, brother. Not bad.
没有人能得到5分。 Nobody ever gets five.
正确的。 Right.
所以六旗主题公园…完全正确。 So Six Flags, the theme park... Exactly.
-是一家德州公司。——正确的。 - Is a Texas company. - Right.
很有趣。 Very interesting.
现在，女士们先生们，如果你是一个真正的德州人，当这首歌响起时，你知道该怎么做。 And now, ladies and gentlemen, if you're a real Texan, you know what to do when this song plays.
你刚才是真想唱"深入德州腹地"吗?——嗯…不。 Did you really just try to Shazam - "Deep in the Heart of Texas"? - Uh... No.
女士们先生们，谁是德州大学的铁杆粉丝? Now, ladies and gentlemen, who here is a die-hard fan of the University of Texas?
哇! Whoo!
谁是德州理工的粉丝? And who here is a fan of Texas Tech?
好吧，让我们听听双方的意见。 Okay, let's hear from both sides.
我们能把UT的风扇拿下来吗? Can we have the UT fan come down?
-祝你好运，伙计。-给他们点颜色瞧瞧，本。 - Good luck, buddy. - Give them hell, Ben.
这是真的吗?你是事后……你以为我们在开玩笑吗? Is this for real? Are you seriou... Do you think we're joking?
再找个德州理工的球迷。 And let's get a Texas Tech fan.
好吧，让我们从德州大学先生开始。 Okay, let's start with Mr. University of Texas.
儿子，你叫什么名字? Now, what's your name, son?
本Manalowitz。 Ben Manalowitz.
whosit ? What the whosit?
你是做什么的，孩子? And what do you do, son?
我是一个作家。 I'm a writer.
一个骑士吗? A rider?
你看起来不像个骑手。 You don't look like a rider.
你骑什么，孩子? What do you ride, son?
嗯? Huh?
嗯，骑马有很多种。 Well, there's lots of kinds of riding.
你可以骑马、驾驶拖拉机。 You can ride horses, steer, tractors.
不。 No.
我不是骑手。我是一个作家。 I'm not a rider. I'm a writer.
我是一个作家。 I'm a writer.
所以，就像，你知道，呃…当……当你看到一本书或一本杂志时……甚至是你在网上读到的一篇文章。 So, like, you know, uh... when... when you come across a book or a magazine... or even an article that you read online.
有人……必须认真思考那些词。我知道作家是什么，你这个自以为是的混蛋。 Somebody has to... has to actually think about what those words... I know what a writer is, you condescending asshole.
告诉我，莎士比亚，你那么喜欢德克萨斯大学的什么? Well, tell me, Shakespeare, what do you like so much about the University of Texas?
我喜欢这是一所公立学校。 Well, I like that it's a state school.
因此，它为当地需要帮助的人提供了经济机会。 So, it gives financial opportunities to local people who could use the help.
我知道它有一个非常好的电影部门。 And I know that it has a very good film department.
其中一些毕业生包括，我相信，理查德·林克莱特。 Some of the graduates include, I believe, Richard Linklater.
啊哈。好的。 Uh-huh. Okay.
你喜欢德州理工什么? And what do you like about Texas Tech?
四分卫马特·哈里斯! Quarterback Matt Harris!
枪了! Guns up!
代表科技! Repping Tech!
摇一下，让它成为 ♪ Shake that thang, make that thang ♪
一直弯到你觉得它会把那个东西弄坏……♪ ♪ Bend until you think it's gonna break that thang... ♪
别担心。 Don't worry about it.
-没人在想。-是的。 - Nobody's thinking about it. - Yeah.
把它从你的脑海中抹去。 Erase it from your mind.
享受。 Enjoy.
当她移动那个东西的时候，那个东西就会被刻上凹槽 ♪ When she moves that thang, grooves that thang ♪
随着音乐的节奏摇摆……♪ ♪ Swing to the rhythm of the groove that thang... ♪
哇!摇晃它,女孩! Whoo! Shake it, girls!
♪没有人能像她那样对我♪ ♪ Nobody else does what she does to me ♪
不是你,KC。 Not you, KC.
摇一摇那个……♪ ♪ Shake that thang... ♪
他们怎么……知道如何做同样的…? How do they all... know how to do the same...?
集体意识。 Collective consciousness.
每首歌都是这样的一个场景 ♪ Every song is such a sight to see ♪
当她移动那个东西的时候，那个东西就会被刻上凹槽 ♪ When she moves that thang, grooves that thang ♪
跟着的节奏摇摆 ♪ Swing to the rhythm of the groove that thang ♪
自己说了 ♪ Speaks for itself ♪
♪没有人能像她那样对我♪ ♪ Nobody else does what she does to me ♪
当她摇晃那个东西的时候……♪ ♪ When she shakes that thang... ♪
Sancholo。 Sancholo.
哇,哇,哇! Whoa, whoa, whoa!
-你要过去吗?-是的。 - You going over there? - Yeah.
要我的枪吗? You want my gun?
你带枪了? You brought a gun?
不是吗?手机，钥匙，钱包，枪。 Didn't I? Phone, keys, wallet, gun.
-是的。——没有。不。 - Yeah. - No. No.
♪没有人能像她那样对我♪ ♪ Nobody else does what she does to me ♪
当她摇那东西的时候 ♪ When she shakes that thang ♪
♪像旧纱门一样摇摆♪ ♪ Swinging like an old screen door ♪
天哪，她做了那个……♪ ♪ Lord, she makes that thang... ♪
请问，你是桑切洛吗? Excuse me, are you Sancholo?
我想跟你说几句话。 I was hoping to talk to you for a second.
一个警察吗? You a cop?
不是一个警察。 Not a cop.
警察没必要说他是警察。 Cop don't have to say he's a cop.
那你为什么问这个? Then why did you ask?
——对吗?-因为你在浪费我的时间 - Right? - 'Cause you're wasting my time.
我觉得还是把你的也浪费了吧。 Figured I might as well waste yours.
听着，我是个记者。 Look, I'm a journalist.
我在做一个报道。 I'm doing a story.
我只是想问你几个问题。 I was really only hoping to ask you a couple of questions.
-我只是想…-想干什么? - I'm just trying to... - Just trying to what?
——该死的杀手!-嘿，泰，放松点! - Fucking killer! - Hey, Ty. Relax!
伙计们，伙计们，伙计们。伙计们，伙计们，伙计们。 Guys, guys, guys, guys. Guys, guys, guys, guys, guys.
对他宽容点。他刚失去了妹妹。 Go easy on him. He just lost his sister.
德州最漂亮的女孩。 Most beautiful girl in Texas.
我听说你在她死的派对上。 So what I heard was that you were at the party where she died.
幸运的我。 Lucky me.
她在我肩膀上咽下最后一口气。 She took her last breath on my shoulder.
我叫Ben Manalowitz。 My name is Ben Manalowitz.
我在做一个关于艾柏林的播客。 I'm doing a podcast about Abilene.
我很想听听你的说法。 I would love to hear your side of the story.
嘿。 Hey.
这里有个普通的乔·罗根。 We got a regular Joe Rogan here.
乔·罗根遇见了塞斯·罗根。 Joe Rogan meets Seth Rogen.
只有你。 Just you.
我上中学的时候，我妈不让我读《哈利·波特》因为教会的东西。 When I was in middle school, my mom wouldn't let me read Harry Potter because of church stuff.
所以我每天晚上都给艾比打电话。 So I would call Abby every night.
她会读给我听。 She would read it to me.
我不知道她为什么关心我。 I don't know what made her care about me.
我想，“为什么是我? I was like, "Why me?
我只是个辍学的毒贩" I'm just an effing dropout drug dealer."
她会说:“心看得见心。” She'd say, "Heart sees heart."
正确的。 Right.
她以前每天都用那部傻逼小剃刀手机给我发这条短信。 She used to text that to me every day on that dumbass little Razr phone.
-你还记得吗?-是的。 - You remember those? - Yeah.
5-4-5。 5-4-5.
心看到的心。 Heart sees heart.
这就像是她的小密码。 It was, like, her little code.
我很想她。 I miss her so much.
你告诉我她的最后一口气都在你肩上。 You told me that her last breath was on your shoulder.
还有人告诉我是你在她死的地方办的派对。 And other people told me that you threw the party where she died.
我都不在场。 I wasn't even there.
好的。 Okay.
你在哪里? Where were you?
看看日期。 Look at the date.
这是在哪里? Where is this?
塔尔萨。我去见阿黛尔了。 Tulsa. I went to see Adele.
我和我侄女在那里。 I was there with my niece.
她……她爱她。 She... She loves her.
阿黛尔? Adele?
很显然，如果你把这事告诉别人，我就得杀了你。 Obviously, I'm gonna have to kill you if you tell anyone about that.
不,这是……是的。 No, it's... Yeah.
我是一个迷。 I'm a fan.
所以…你有不在场证明，但你想让人们认为是你杀了她? So... you have an alibi, but you want people to think you killed her?
这些该死的贩毒集团。 These fucking cartels, man.
他们很快就会控制一切。 They're gonna control everything pretty soon.
-你们是贩毒集团。——不,先生。 - You're the cartels. - No, sir.
我很想拥有她，但我不知道。 It kills me to claim her, but I don't know.
如果他们不认为我杀了人，那我可能就得杀了人……来证明我自己。 If they don't actually think I killed someone, then I might have to kill someone... to prove myself.
事情不是这样的，对吧? That's not really how it works, is it?
我是这么听说的。 It's what I heard.
继续，斯诺普斯，这不是真的 Go on Snopes. It's not a real thing.
你说什么? Excuse me?
让我把这些拼凑起来。她吸毒过量……他妈的?我们说的可是艾比，好吗? So, let me piece this together. She OD'd... The fuck? This is Abby we're talking about here, okay?
她不愿碰那些东西。 She wouldn't touch the stuff.
她连止痛药都不碰。 Girl wouldn't touch an Advil.
听着，他们在离派对两英里半的地方找到了她，在一个所有死亡事件发生的地方叫做"事后派对" Listen, they found her two and a half miles from the party, at a spot where all the deaths happen called "the Afterparty."
你不能就这么一个人走掉。 You don't just wander off like that by yourself.
有人带你去那里。 Someone takes you there.
这不是吸毒过量。 This was no OD.
没有该死的方法。 No fucking way.
谁会去这些派对? Who goes to these parties?
每一个人。 Everybody.
——每个人都去。没有人去了。-是的。 - Everybody goes. Nobody went. - Yeah.
-每次都是同一群人?——是的。 - Same people every time? - Yes.
下一班是什么时候? When's the next one?
每当我想要的。 Whenever I want.
你的支持率是11%，兄弟。 You're at 11%, bro.
你可能想切换到低功耗模式。 You might want to switch to low power mode.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
喂? Hello?
如果她是被谋杀的呢? What if she was murdered?
什么? What?
我们想都没想就否定了第一个理论。 We dismissed the first theory presented without even thinking about it.
如果我们不把他们当回事呢? What if we're not taking them seriously?
等等，你是说是墨西哥毒贩干的吗? Wait, so are you saying the Mexican drug dealer did it?
绝对不是。 Definitely not that.
但这是第一个理论。 But that was the first theory presented.
我只是确定不是因为这个。 I'm just sure it wasn't that.
你为什么这么肯定? Why are you so sure?
的直觉。 Gut.
——肠道?-听着，我知道我们喜欢以前的关系。 - Gut? - Look, I know we liked what we had before.
关于美国，幻想，遗憾以及复仇的意义。 Something about America and fantasy and regret and the meaning of vengeance.
不,不。这个…这是更好的。 No, no. This... this is better.
这只会越来越大。 This just keeps getting bigger and bigger.
对吧? Right?
好的。 Okay.
保持安全。 Stay safe.
的故事。 Get the story.
不是这个顺序。 Not in that order.
不。这个顺序。 No. In that order.
你在看什么? What are you watching?
阿比林的视频。 Um, videos of Abilene.
你看到我的手机了吗? Do you see my phone?
它是如何破裂的。 How it's, like, cracked.
是的。 Yeah.
它让我看起来像我的感觉。 It makes me look the way that I feel.
嗯… Um...
我在哪儿见过你? Where do I know you from?
马术竞技会。 Rodeo.
这是长角牛的风扇。 It's the Longhorns fan.
的确是这样，迈克。确实是。 Indeed it is, Mike. Indeed it is.
事实上，那是个误会。 Actually, that was a misunderstanding.
我很抱歉。我甚至不是一个足球迷。 I'm sorry. I'm not even a football fan.
我只是想融入他们。 Um, I was just trying to fit in.
你融入这里的方式真有趣。 Funny way to fit in around here.
点。 Point taken.
我不知道还会有另一支队伍。 I didn't know there was gonna be another team.
我在为德州加油。 I was cheering for Texas.
嗯…我想问你几个关于艾比林·肖之死的问题。 Um... I'd love to ask you a couple questions about the death of Abilene Shaw.
——吸毒过量。——事故。 - OD'd. - Accident.
我知道那是官方报告。 I know that was the official report.
我在想，你能和她死的那晚在场的人谈谈吗? I was wondering, were you able to talk to anyone who was there the night she died?
你去过抽水千斤顶旁边的派对吗? You ever go to a party out by the pump jacks?
大家都去了，却没人。 Everybody goes and nobody was there.
我不在那里。 I wasn't there.
你为什么这么感兴趣? Why are you so interested anyway?
你是她的男朋友吗? You her, uh, boyfriend or something?
我们一起出去玩了。 Uh, we hung out.
是的。是的，我是她的男朋友。 Yeah. Yeah, I was her boyfriend.
你知道，90%的情况下都是男朋友干的。 Well, you know, 90% of the time it's the boyfriend who did it.
好吧,我不是……我不是她的男朋友。 Okay, I wasn't... I wasn't really her boyfriend.
他说的有点前后矛盾了。 His story's starting to sound a little inconsistent.
瑞士奶酪。 Swiss cheese.
是啊，我并不想在这里制造任何麻烦。 Yeah, um, I'm not trying to cause any problems here.
我只是想帮助这个家庭。 I'm really just trying to help the family.
反正这也不是我们的管辖范围。 You know, this isn't even our jurisdiction anyways.
派对在市区外举行。 Party happened outside city limits.
-嗯-那是县不是市 - Mm. - That's county, not city.
——县治安官。——警长会谈。 - County sheriff. - Sheriff'll talk.
警长是一个政治家。 Sheriff's a politician.
这不是事实吗? Ain't that a fact.
我很想帮你，孩子，但我们的政策是不能对我们的程序或案件发表评论。 I'd love to help you, son, but our policy is we can't comment on our process or cases.
我当时在为一个能被数百万人听到的播客采访人。 Well, I was interviewing people for a podcast that could be heard by millions of people.
但我想那是不可能的。 But I guess that's not a possibility.
这些是羟考酮棒。 These are oxy sticks.
看到这些药是怎么排列的了吗? See how the pills are squared off?
这样，他们就可以把它们装在箱子里，一直装到角落里，而不会浪费任何空间。——嗯。 That way, they can pack 'em in boxes to the corners - without wasting any space. - Mm-hmm.
这就是这个行业的规模。 That's how big this business is.
我们不知道是谁运的。 We don't know who's shipping it.
我们只知道他们沿着州际公路沿着边界来了。 All we know is they're coming along the interstate right along the border.
那条路正好经过派对所在的油田。 And that route cuts right by the oil field where the party was.
这是县里最常见的吸毒过量地点。 The most common overdose spot in the county.
我们叫它“余兴派对”。 We call it "the Afterparty."
很普通的事情，说起来很难过。 Very common thing, sad to say.
这是什么? What's this right here?
看起来有两对指纹。 Looks like two pairs of prints.
牛仔靴。 Cowboy boots.
发出全境通告，发现两个穿着牛仔靴的人。 Calling out an APB to find two men wearing cowboy boots.
——好的。-搞什么鬼? - Okay. - What the fuck?
下台。 Stand down.
儿子，我希望你一切都好，真的。 Son, I wish you well, I really do.
上帝保佑你的小心脏，但这都不是我们的管辖范围。 And bless your little heart, but this ain't even our jurisdiction, though.
——不是吗?——不,先生。 - It's not? - No, sir.
这是在高速公路上。 This was along the highway.
你想跟公路巡警谈谈。 You want to talk to highway patrol.
那不就像一个警长吹着他的热风把你直接吹进我的办公室吗。 Well, ain't that just like a sheriff to puff his hot air and blow you straight into my office.
如果有人在29号公路上的派对上吸毒过量，我很抱歉，但我们还有事要做。 If there's a drug overdose at a party in some fucking field off 29, I'm sorry, but we got shit to do.
我们不是一群呆呆地盯着大黄蜂的陆军士兵。 We're not a bunch of Army rejects just gazing at the Rio Grande.
-我从没这么说过。-我不是在说我们 - I never said that you were. - I wasn't talking about us.
高速公路巡警就是这么跟你说的吗? Oh, is that what they told you over at highway patrol?
你可以去告诉小布朗和其他那些光荣的收费员如果他们多花点时间用真枪少用点雷达枪， Well, you can go tell Junior Brown and the rest of them glorified meter maids that if they spent more time with their real guns and less with their radar guns,
我们也许就不用在跨佩科斯大街上到处追那个该死的德州黑帮了! we might not have to chase the goddamn Texas syndicate up and down the Trans-Pecos!
明白了吗? Got it?
是的。如果我能找到一种自然的方式，在与他们的对话中加入这些内容，我就会这么做。 Yes. If I find a natural way to work that into the conversation with them, I will do that.
——DRT。——DRT。 - DRT. - DRT.
——DRT。-死在那里。 - DRT. - Dead right there.
执法部门一点帮助都没有。 Law enforcement was no help at all.
你在那里学到了很多，不是吗? You're learning a lot down there, aren't you?
谋杀或服药过量发生在很多这样的事情发生的地方。 The murder or overdose happened where a lot of these things happen.
在四个重叠司法管辖区的交汇处。 At the intersection of four overlapping jurisdictions.
所以他们都踢向对方。 So they all kicked it to each other.
几率有多大? What are the odds?
好了，我要和大家讨论一下这个问题，调整一下拼字板，然后我要去找罗宾听听她的想法。 Okay, I'm gonna kick this around with the team for a little bit, shake up the Boggle board, and then I'm gonna hit up Robin to get her thoughts.
好的。谢谢,埃路易斯。谢谢,每一个人。 All right. Thanks, Eloise. Thanks, everybody.
——再见,本。——再见,本。 - Bye, Ben. - Bye, Ben.
你可能都不看这个了，但我在德州的家里，我很无聊。 Um, you're probably not even gonna watch this, but I'm back home in Texas, and I'm bored.
这是我弟弟，梅森。 This is my little brother, Mason.
他睡在我的地板上，因为他怕鬼。 He sleeps on my floor because he's afraid of ghosts.
我想告诉他世上没有鬼，但无所谓。 And I tried to tell him there's no such thing as ghosts, but whatever.
这样他就能和我在一起。 It keeps him close to me.
所以我想在这里也不全是坏事。 So I guess it's not all bad being here.
这是,嗯……嗯,就是这样。 That's, um... Well, that's it.
梅森。 Mason.
是的,先生? Yes, sir?
只是说声晚安。 Just saying good night.
你把我叫醒就为了道声晚安? You woke me up just to say good night?
是的,先生。 Yes, sir.
我非常爱你。 I love you mucho.
集体意识。 Collective consciousness.
如果每个人都相信同一件事… If everyone believes the same thing...
但在没有任何事实支持的情况下，我们是听从直觉，还是无视它? but without any facts to support it, do we listen to that intuition or dismiss it?
过量? An overdose?
她这辈子连止痛药都没吃过。 Girl never took so much as an Advil in her life.
她连止痛药都没碰过。 She never touched so much as an Advil.
你去过抽水千斤顶旁边的派对吗? You ever go to a party out by the pump jacks?
每个人都是。没有人去了。 Everybody goes. Nobody went.
我不在那里。 I wasn't there.
问题是你得到了所有这些明亮的，有创意的灯，却没有地方插入他们的能量。 The problem is you get all these bright, creative lights and nowhere to plug in their energy.
所以它被引向阴谋论，毒品和暴力。 And so it gets channeled into conspiracy theories and drugs and violence.
我来这里是想知道为什么悲伤的人会选择相信一个神话。 I came here to find out why people in grief would choose to believe a myth.
我不知道这一切之间有什么联系，但你肯定知道。 I don't know shit about how this all connects, but you bet your ass it does.
ms - 13 ?那条线吗? MS-13? La Linea?
是的，我对La Linea很熟悉。 Yeah, I'm familiar with La Linea.
他们去年杀害了41名记者。 They actually murdered 41 journalists last year.
哦，他们也做过坏事。 Oh, they've done bad things, too.
但现在我发现自己在想，这种直觉中蕴含了多少真理。 But now I find myself wondering how much truth might be embedded in that intuition.
你不会碰巧知道她的手机密码吧? You don't happen to know her phone password, do you?
把它传给了全州所有的极客小队。 Took it to every Geek Squad in the state.
这是不可能破解的。 It's impossible to crack.
-这不是我们。-你找错部门了。 - This ain't us. - You got the wrong department.
——公路巡警。迈克和丹。——边境巡逻。 - Highway patrol. -Mike and Dan. - Border patrol.
治安部门。-你想去县里。 - Sheriff's department. - You want county.
在德州，一切都更大，包括你的期望和现实。 Everything's bigger in Texas, including your expectations and its reality.
我是主持人本·马纳洛维茨，这位是来自美国广播集团的阿比林。 I'm your host, Ben Manalowitz, and from American Radio Collective, this is Abilene.
嘿。 Hey.
猜猜是谁打来的。 Guess who's on the line.
嘿。这是罗宾。 Hey. It's Robin.
我制作“美国时刻”。 I produce American Moment.
是的。我知道你是谁。 Yeah. I-I know who you are.
这是没办法,嗯……很高兴见到你，罗宾。 It's-it's, um... It's great to meet you, Robin.
-你好吗?-很高兴和你聊天。 - How are you? - Great to talk to you.
我喜欢你对死白人女孩的处理。 I love what you're doing with Dead White Girl.
谢谢你！非常感谢。 Thank you. Thank you so much.
埃洛伊丝说我们会把这个故事的一部分作为《美国时刻》的一个环节，这将有助于推广你的系列节目。 Eloise pitched that we use some of the story as a segment on American Moment, and that would help promote your series.
哇。这样它就会上美国时刻了。 Wow. So it'd be on American Moment.
你得到的一切都很棒。 Everything you're getting is great.
剧中的角色非常棒。 The characters are amazing.
是的。不，我是说，角色太棒了。 Yeah. No, I mean, the characters are unbelievable.
泰就是个爆竹。 Ty is just a total firecracker.
奶奶应该有自己的节目。 And Granny deserves her own show.
然后艾柏林，我是说…越多人听到她的声音，就会越多人爱上她。 And then Abilene, I mean... The more people hear her voice, the more they're gonna fall in love with her.
所以如果你觉得你能把手头的东西加强，我们可以把它放到周日的那集。 So if you think you can tighten up what you have, we can work it into Sunday's episode.
是的。我…绝对的。 Yeah. I... Absolutely.
我很乐意。 I'd love to.
哇。是的。是的，我能做到。 Wow. Yeah. Yeah, I can do that.
我能问问你在吃什么吗? Can I ask what you're eating?
这是，嗯，玉米饼。 This is, um, Frito pie.
听起来太好了。 It's great sound.
那是什么? What is that?
炸玉米饼就是把一袋炸玉米饼切开然后倒辣椒进去。 Uh, Frito pie is when they cut open a bag of Fritos and they pour chili in it.
然后用叉子从袋子里拿出来吃。 Then you eat it out of the bag with a fork.
啊。这是恶心。 Ugh. That is disgusting.
是的，以一种好的方式。 Yeah, in a good way.
本，你在听吗? Ben, are you there?
本，我跟丢你了吗? Ben, did I lose you?
你怎么了，孩子? What happened to you, son?
我的普锐斯爆炸。 My Prius exploded.
嗯哼。 Mm-hmm.
哦,谢天谢地。你没事吧? Oh, thank heavens. Are you all right?
嘿。 Hey.
-是的。-看啊 - Yeah. - Oh, look at that.
——哦,嘿。-发生了什么事? - Oh, hey. - What happened?
-我很好。-他的车爆炸了，妈妈! - I'm fine. - His car blew up, Mom!
哦，这太操蛋了!这个…克莱顿-泰勒!——对不起。 Oh, it's so fucked up! This... - Tyler Clayton! - Sorry.
你没事，我们太感激了。 We're just so grateful you're all right.
哦,我的上帝。如果你开的是一辆有汽油什么的真车呢? Oh, my God. What if you were driving a real car with gas and stuff?
是的。 Yeah.
本，这是我们快成功的信号。 Ben, this is a message that we're getting close.
或者是孩子们无缘无故和坦纳瑞特鬼混。 Or it's kids fucking around for no reason with Tannerite.
我不敢相信你们都来了。 I can't believe you're all here.
那我们还能在哪里? Well, where else would we be?
来吧。姑娘们在车里等着呢。 Come on. The girls are waiting in the car.
我们走吧。 Let's go.
-嘿，你一瘸一拐的吗?——没有。 - Hey, are you limping? - No.
你确定吗? You sure about that?
-来吧，妈妈。-是的。他的脸看起来很好。 - Come on, Mama. - Yeah. His face looks all right.
-他会没事的-我见过更糟的 - He's gonna be all right. - Yeah, I seen worse.
来吧,朋友。 Come on, buddy.
-一切都好吗?——太好了。 - How is everything? - So good.
这是我们的朋友本。 This is our friend Ben.
这是他第一次来Whataburger。 And this is his first time at Whataburger.
-我们干一杯吧。——谢谢。 - Let's have a toast. - Thank you.
——本。-来吧，敬本。——本。 - To Ben. -Come on, to Ben. - To Ben.
——Whataburger Whataburger,。-敬一杯美味的奶昔。 - Whataburger, Whataburger. - To a good milkshake.
——Whoopah。——在那里。 - Whoopah. - Over there.
谢谢。 Thanks.
你觉得怎么样? Well, what do you think?
我喜欢这个。 I love this.
你会怎么做? You do?
它总是在那里。 And it's always right there.
-对不起，妈妈。——哦。 - Excuse me, Mama. - Ooh.
这是德州的特色。 It's a Texas thing.
你不应该这么做，但你应该这么做。 You're not supposed to do it, but you're supposed to do it.
你应该带上你的幸运数字，但我们认为每个数字对某人来说都是幸运的，所以我们把所有的数字都带上。 You're supposed to take your lucky number, but we figure every number's lucky to somebody, so we take all of 'em.
我不会告诉迈克和丹的 I won't tell Mike and Dan.
好像他们会做任何事一样。 Like they'd do anything.
他们会说那是个意外。 They'd say it was an accident.
今晚聚会。 Party tonight.
-哦，着装要求是什么?——啊。 - Oh, what's the dress code? - Ugh.
野马和带扣的兔子。 Broncos and buckle bunnies.
啊。你知道的，现在他们真的是在把它和主题联系在一起。 Ugh. You know, they're seriously phoning it in with the themes nowadays.
你今晚想来吗? You want to come tonight?
你可以从我的衣橱里借点东西。 You can borrow something from my closet.
你可以走了吗? You're okay to go?
这不会激起你太多的感情吗? It doesn't stir up too many feelings for you?
你要继续生活。 You gotta keep living life.
就像叶卡捷琳娜大帝说的:“你必须回到马的下面。” Like Catherine the Great said, "You gotta get right back under the horse."
泰勒克莱顿。——什么? Tyler Clayton. - What?
我听了你推荐的历史播客。 I-I listened to that history podcast you recommended.
我有个问题要问你。 I've got a question for you.
你在德州有家人吗? Have you got family in Texas?
不。 No.
你现在所做的。 You do now.
-对吧，各位?——是的,女士。 - Isn't that right, everybody? - Yes, ma'am.
小心你许的愿，本。 Careful what you wish for, Ben.
1秒。 One second.
谁有蜜糖的东西在那边? Who's got a honey thing over there?
-我这里有一些——谁?嗯,嗯,嗯。 - Um, I got some right here. - Anybody? Mmm, mmm, mmm.
-嗨。有什么事吗?-嗨。 - Hey. What's up? - Hey.
你的车爆炸了? Your car blew up?
你还好吗? Are you okay?
是的。是的。 Yeah. Yes.
我是说，我希望我能得到那种没人能得到的额外租赁保险，但我没事。 I mean, I wish I got that extra rental insurance that no one ever gets, but I'm fine.
很好。听着，我写完了，大家都很喜欢。 Good. Well, listen, I finished it, and everyone loves it.
谢谢。“完成”是什么意思? Thanks. What do you mean "finished it"?
你现在很危险，而且你已经得到了你需要的一切。 You're clearly in danger, and you've already got everything you need.
我没有破案。 Well, I didn't solve the murder.
这样比较好。 It's better this way.
一个没有解决方案的暧昧结局。 You know, an ambiguous ending without resolution.
这是……这就是这样一个故事的秘密武器。 That's... that's the secret weapon with a story like this.
它折磨着你。 It gnaws at you.
它永远萦绕在你心头。 It haunts you forever.
你从不放手。 You never let it go.
不，还有更多，埃洛伊塞 No, there's more to it, Eloise.
我就快成功了。 I-I'm getting so close.
虽然我们很想看到你因为一则新闻而被炸飞…——不,不。 As much as we'd love to see you - blown up for a story... - No, no.
我的良心告诉我，我必须选择一个人，而不是一个故事。 My conscience tells me I have to choose a person over a story.
不。 No.
不,不。 No, no.
否则，就得花上两年的时间去看心理医生，然后…在我的计划中我负担不起。 Otherwise, it would take, like, two years of therapy to justify it, and... I can't afford that on my plan.
听着，你会因此成名的。 Look, you're gonna be huge from this.
好吗? Okay?
回家。 Come home.
——你还记得吗?——嘿,你。 - You remember? - Hey, you.
嘿。很抱歉。 Hey. Sorry about that.
是谁呢? Who was that?
朋友 Friend.
是Equinox Girl Cute吗? Was it Equinox Girl Cute?
还是娜塔莉·班布尔? Or was it Natalie Bumble?
是我的播客制作人打来的。 Uh, it was, uh, my podcast producer.
一切都在正轨上。 Uh, and everything's on track.
你这么问真是太贴心了。 You're very sweet to ask.
我非常爱你。 I love you mucho.
我们很幸运你找到了艾柏林。 We're so lucky you found Abilene.
我真不知道她看上我哪点了。 I really don't know what she saw in me.
我做的事。 I do.
我明白了。我完全理解。 I get it. I totally get it.
心见心。——哦。 - Heart sees heart. - Oh.
我来这里和艾比在一起的时候…“疯狂的德州家庭”，对吧? You know, when I came down here to spend time with Abby's... "Crazy Texan family," right?
是的。 Yeah.
我从没想过会是这样。 Uh, I never thought it would be like this.
人们会给你惊喜。 People can surprise you.
是的。 Yeah.
像阿比林。 Like Abilene.
我是说，她充满了惊喜。 I mean, she was full of surprises.
——像阿比林。——嗯。 - Like Abilene. - Mm-hmm.
名声很好，但是个瘾君子。 Great reputation, but a huge pill-popper.
什么? What?
你刚才说什么? What'd you just say?
把这个放到你的播客里吧。 Mm. Put that in your podcast, maybe.
你从哪儿听来的? Where'd you hear that?
女孩们告诉我的。 The girls told me.
泰让我们什么都别说。 Ty told us not to say anything.
你是认真的吗? Are you fucking serious?
我以为如果你知道她在吸毒就不会跟我这么做了。 I thought you wouldn't do this with me if you knew that she was using.
你认为呢? You think?
毒品是阿比林做的事。 Drugs was something Abilene did.
她不是这样的人。 It's not who she was.
但这就是她的死因，我们也在调查。 But it is how she died, which is what we were investigating.
我以为事情不止如此。 I thought there was more to this.
我以为我们能互相了解一下，那就太好了。 I thought that you and I would get to know each other, and that would be cool.
我…也许这是悲伤过程的一部分。 I... Maybe it was part of the grieving process.
否认? Denial?
这不是悲伤十二步法之一吗? Isn't that one of the 12 steps of grief?
这是悲伤的五个阶段，12步恢复，但我知道这里的每个人都更熟悉后者。 It's five stages of grief, 12 steps to recovery, but I understand that everyone here is more familiar with the latter.
它是复杂的。 It's complicated.
不是。其实很简单。 It's not. It's actually very simple.
这里的一切其实都很简单，也许这就是我花了这么长时间才理解它的原因。 Everything here is actually really simple, and maybe that's why it took me so long to understand it.
我听从了自己的内心，这就是我们在这里所做的。 Well, I was following my heart, and that's what we do around here.
跟随自己的心。 You follow your heart.
是的。 Yeah.
也许是时候看看周围问问自己这对你有什么好处了。 Well, maybe it's time to look around and ask yourselves how that's working out for you.
也许你应该改变一下，跟着你的大脑走。 Maybe you should try following your brain for a change.
因为当你跟随自己的内心，地球是平的，气候变化是一个骗局，疫苗含有微芯片，墨西哥毒贩杀了你的妹妹。 Because when you follow your heart, the Earth is flat, climate change is a hoax, vaccines contain microchips, and Mexican drug dealers killed your sister.
你们编造了这些疯狂的故事来解释为什么你们的生活如此糟糕因为真相太可怕了，你们不敢面对，那就是你们自己造成的。 You invent these insane fucking narratives to explain why your lives are such shit shows because the truth is too scary for you to face, which is that you did it to yourselves.
你知道我老家的人是怎么说你们的吗? Do you know what people say about you guys where I'm from?
-让我猜猜。坏事。——不。更糟。 - Let me guess. Bad things. - No. Worse.
我们说好事 We say good things.
“我们本应该认真对待它们，但我们却认真对待它们。” "We took them seriously when we should've taken them literally."
你都没有。 You're neither.
你们不是认真的人。 You're not serious people.
也许现在是你们认真对待我们的时候了因为我的家乡很有趣。 And maybe it's time for you all to take us seriously and literally because where I'm from is fun and interesting.
这里的人丰富多样，而你的小镇是这样的! And the people are rich and diverse, and, meanwhile, your town looks like this!
祝福你的心。 Bless your heart.
我知道那是什么意思。 Oh, and I know what that means.
所以你知道吗?祝福你的心。 So you know what? Bless your heart.
祝福你的心。祝福你们所有人。 Bless your heart. Bless all your hearts.
你们所有的心都可以去祝福他们自己。 All your hearts can go bless themselves.
你凭什么跟我们说话? Who are you to talk to us?
我还得拉你去她的葬礼! I had to drag you to her fucking funeral!
你是谁? Who are you?
如果你的车在布鲁克林爆炸，有人会…有人来帮你吗? If your car would've blown up in Brooklyn, would anyone... Anyone come to help you?
首先，我在布鲁克林根本不需要车。 First of all, I wouldn't have needed a car in Brooklyn.
第二，就算我有一个，我也不知道会被谁炸飞。 Second, if I had one, I doubt it would've been blown up by God knows who.
我真不明白你们这些人。 I don't understand you people.
“你们这些人”是一种微攻击。 "You people" is a microaggression.
我的歉意。你们。 My apologies. Y'all.
“你们”是一种文化挪用。 "Y'all" is a cultural appropriation.
巴黎……你指责别人挪用文化就是文化挪用。 Paris... you accusing someone of cultural appropriation is cultural appropriation.
你为什么不照顾她? Why wouldn't you look after her?
去看看她? Check in on her?
你不会为她做任何事的，对吧? You wouldn't do anything for her, would you?
这是正确的。我不会。 That's right. I wouldn't.
我和不同的人在一起，我以为她也是，因为我生活在现实世界，每个人都是这样的。 I was hooking up with different people, and I assumed she was, too, because I live in the real world, and that's what everybody does.
你打电话的时候我就想告诉你了。 I tried to tell you this when you called.
她不是我女朋友。 She wasn't my girlfriend.
她只是我手机里的一个女孩。 She was just a girl in my phone.
你刚打过架。 Now you've been in a fight.
我不知道整个故事……但生活是复杂的。 I don't know the whole story... but life is complicated.
即使是在这里，如果你相信的话。 Even around here, if you can believe that.
我来告诉你我的想法。 I'll tell you what I think.
我认为人们不会无缘无故地吸毒。 I think people don't do drugs for no reason.
他们吸毒是因为他们很痛苦。 They do drugs because they're in pain.
疼痛像…比如关心一个几乎不知道你名字的人。 Pain like... like maybe caring for someone who hardly knows your name.
所以，我不知道，本。 So, I don't know, Ben.
但如果你还在为发生的事找替罪羊你可能不需要大老远来。 But if you're still looking for someone to blame for what happened... you may not have needed to come all this way.
祝福你的心。 Bless your heart.
你是对的，埃洛伊塞。 You were right, Eloise.
我就是故事。 I was the story.
一个自恋的万事通以为他会明白美国的意义，结果他只知道自己有多空虚。 A self-absorbed know-it-all thinks he's gonna figure out the meaning of America, and all he learns is how empty he is.
我是那个活在神话中的人。 I was the one living a myth.
他们说你会为你没做的事而后悔。 They say you regret the things you don't do.
我没有爱。 I didn't love.
我没有故事。 I have no story.
我想这就是故事的情节。 I guess that's the story.
我就是故事，这故事糟透了。 I am the story, and the story sucks.
这个故事没什么。 The story is nothing.
我回家。 I'm coming home.
我很害怕。 I'm scared.
你在怕什么? What are you scared of?
鬼。 Ghosts.
鬼魂并不真实。 Ghosts aren't real.
如果它们不是真的，为什么每个人都知道它们是什么? If they're not real, how come everyone knows what they are?
它们作为一个想法是真实的，但它们不是真实的。 They're real as an idea, but they're not real, real.
这就是鬼魂的可怕之处，他们不是真的。 That's what's scary about ghosts, that they aren't real.
如果鬼魂是真的，他们一点也不可怕，对吧? If ghosts were real, they wouldn't be scary at all, right?
我们只是微笑着说，“嗨，幽灵们。” We would just smile and say, "Hi, ghosts."
嗨,鬼魂。 Hi, ghosts.
嗨,鬼。 Hi, ghost.
那不是很酷吗? Wouldn't that be cool?
如果某个人已经不在了，他们身上的一些东西有时还会让你感到惊讶? If when someone wasn't there anymore, there was still a little piece of them that could surprise you sometimes?
是的。 Yeah.
但是没有，什么都没有。 But there's not, there's nothing.
这就是鬼的可怕之处。 And that's what's scary about ghosts.
感觉自己还活着的那一小部分根本就不存在了。 That the little piece of someone that feels like it might still be there isn't there at all.
你感觉好点了吗? Do you feel better?
不。 No.
我也不。 Me neither.
谢谢你的倾听。 Thanks for listening.
我明天就要走了，梅森。 I'm leaving tomorrow, Mason.
我非常爱你。 I love you mucho.
1-4-3-5。 1-4-3-5.
什么? What?
1-4-3-5。 1-4-3-5.
这是艾比以前对我说的话。 It's what Abby used to say to me.
她常说"我很爱你" She used to say, "I love you mucho,"
但后来她把它缩短了。 but then she shortened it.
所以它有点像一个密码，因为那是“我爱你很多”里字母的数量。 So it was kind of like a secret code 'cause that's the number of letters in "I love you mucho."
1-4-3-5。 1-4-3-5.
喂? Hello?
这是美丽的。 This is beautiful.
是什么? What is?
你刚才录的。 What you just recorded.
你最后一块。 Your concluding piece.
这是我们一开始就说好的。 It's what we talked about from the beginning.
断开,神话……嗯，故事总是私人的，但是…这是你的。 It's disconnection, myth... Uh, stories are always personal, but... this is you.
你知道，这很适合你。 You know, it's so you.
这是一种……每一个人。 It's kind of... everyone.
你还没锁门，对吧? You didn't lock that yet, did you?
不，明天早上才去。 No, not till the morning.
如果你想看看，就在服务器上。 It's on the server if you want to check it out.
太好了,太好了。今晚千万别碰它。 Great, great. Uh, just-just don't touch it tonight.
还有,呃…这不是100%。 There's, uh... It's not 100%.
我要补充一点。 There's a tiny piece I'm gonna add.
不，别碰它。太棒了。 No, don't touch it. It's great.
你只会把事情搞砸。不喜欢。 You're only gonna fuck it up. Don't.
你现在在哪里? Where are you right now?
我在优步上。 Uh, I'm in an Uber.
不管怎样，干得好。 Well, anyway, good job.
人们会喜欢这个的。 People are gonna love this.
我不知道你还有这个本事。 I didn't know you had it in you.
或许我是这么做的。 Or maybe I did.
心见心，对吧? Heart sees heart, right?
好吧,好吧。 Okay, all right.
好吧，等到明天早上，好吗?好吧,再见。 All right, just wait till the morning, okay? Okay, bye.
♪我不会是你的选择♪ ♪ I won't be your chosen one ♪
♪我只是你的火♪ ♪ I'll just be your fire ♪
我不会成为你的爱子 ♪ I won't be your favored son ♪
♪我只是你想要的♪ ♪ I'll just be what you desire ♪
♪我不会是你的超人 ♪ I won't be your superman ♪
♪但我将是你的恐惧♪ ♪ But I'll be your fear ♪
♪我不会是你的应许之地♪ ♪ I won't be your promised land ♪
♪我只是你听到的那个声音♪ ♪ I'll just be the voice you hear ♪
哦，开枪了，还是跑开藏起来吧 ♪ Ooh, shot, better run and hide ♪
♪哦，中枪了，有一只邪恶的眼睛…♪ ♪ Ooh, shot, got an evil eye... ♪
-别走开。——是的,先生。 - Don't go anywhere. - Yes, sir.
因为，哦，中枪了，我有一只邪恶的眼睛，是的 ♪ 'Cause, ooh, shot, got an evil eye, yeah ♪
看他! Look at him!
他妈的是的。德州理工烟火，贱人。 Fuck yeah. Texas Tech fireworks, bitch.
红色和黑色，宝贝。 Red and black, baby.
你在逗我吗? Are you shitting me?
我告诉过你黑烟火不会出现的，你个混蛋。 I told you black fireworks ain't gonna show, you jackass.
我能看见他们。 I can see 'em.
哦。嘿。 Oh. Hey.
这是长角牛的风扇。 It's the Longhorns fan.
你的车怎么样了，伙计? How's your car, man?
你喜欢我们的做法吗? You like what we did to it?
是关于足球的吗? That was about football?
耶稣基督。 Jesus Christ.
你他妈在这里干什么? What the fuck are you doing here?
我收到了邀请。 I got an invite.
-你穿的是我的衣服-是的。 - Oh, you're wearing my shit. - Yeah.
他妈的什么? What the fuck?
好吧，这是他的帽子，所以… Okay, well, it's his hat, so...
你最好小心点。 You better be careful.
那是把上膛的枪。 That's a loaded gun.
你的枪上了膛? You keep your gun loaded?
你的手机一直是充电的? You keep your phone charged?
-你怎么来的?-梅森载我来的 - How'd you even get here? - Mason drove me.
梅森到底是谁? Who in the fuck is Mason?
梅森是你的兄弟。 Mason's your fucking brother.
我会保护你的。 I'd watch your back.
你在这里没有朋友。 You don't have friends here.
看看是谁。 Look who it is.
——我的朋友。-看看你，兄弟 - My friend. - Look at you, bud.
你过得如何? How you doing?
播客怎么样了? How's that podcast coming?
我昨晚发的。 I sent it in last night.
你还在这里吗? You're still here?
还在这里。 Still here.
德州有影响力，不是吗? Texas has a pull, doesn't it?
有点让人心烦。 Kinda gets under your skin.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
你为什么不把那玩意打开? Why don't you turn that thing on?
给你讲个故事。 Got a story for you.
伙计们。 Fellas.
1875年，美国通过了第一部毒品法。 First drug law in the United States passed in 1875.
中国铁路工人带来了鸦片。 The Chinese rail workers - brought in the opium den. - Mm.
这个国家是如此的反移民，他们禁止鸦片馆。 And this country was so anti-immigrant that they banned the opium den.
-不是鸦片。——嗯。 - Not the opium. - Hmm.
对吧? Right?
你听过比这更美国的吗? You ever hear anything more American than that?
我的意思是，现在鸦片在整个中心地带爆发，所有的仪式，威严，魅力和乐趣都消失了。 I mean, now we got an opium epidemic breaking out across the heartland with all the ceremony, majesty, glamour and fun's removed.
而这正是人们渴望的。 And-and that's what people yearn for.
明白我的意思了吗? You see what I'm saying?
你觉得加里·韦伯今天能获得普利策奖吗? Do you think Gary Webb would've won a Pulitzer today?
我觉得你留在这里很明智。 You know, I think you were smart for staying here.
——是吗?-是的。 - Yeah? - Yeah.
关于艾柏林的故事，很好。 That story about Abilene, it's nice.
我觉得你注定要讲述一个更大的故事。 I think you were meant to tell a bigger story.
问问你自己，今天这个国家的哪个部分是为了某些人的利益而保持崩溃、士气低落、依赖和分裂? Ask yourself, what part of the country today is it in certain people's interest to keep devastated, demoralized, dependent and divided?
阿片类药物危机，国家分裂，公民骚乱。 You got the opioid crisis, nation in divide, civic unrest.
为什么这些事情会同时发生? Why are all these things happening at the same time?
你觉得这到底是怎么回事? What do you really think is going on here?
跟你说了我有个故事要告诉你。 Told you I had a story for you.
你是什么意思? So what are you saying?
这些都有联系吗? That it all connects?
阴谋论是真的? That the conspiracy theories are true?
我想说的是，人们能感知到真相，但他们只是抓住了事实。 What I'm saying is people can sense the truth, but they're grasping for the facts.
看，神话就是没有事实的真相。 See, a myth is just a truth without facts.
这就是为什么它是抽像的，粗糙的，错误的。 That's why it comes out all abstract, gnarled, wrong.
容易被忽视和嘲笑。 Easy to dismiss and ridicule.
没有人会听他们的，因为他们不了解事实。 Nobody listens to them because they don't have the facts.
但我确实是这样想的。 But I do.
而你,本…是的。 And you, Ben... Yeah.
整个该死的世界都会听你的。 The whole damn world will listen to you.
他们要去哪里? Where are they going?
。颁奖典礼后 Afterparty.
的。颁奖典礼后 The Afterparty.
跟我说说。 Tell me about that.
我是说，每天都有人吸毒过量一百次，本。 I mean, people overdose a hundred times a day, Ben.
这是一个事实。 That's a fact.
但他们不能在一个会给你我这样的人带来麻烦的地方做? But they can't do it in a place where it's gonna be a problem for people like you and I. Hmm?
这就是发生在艾柏林身上的事。 That's what happened to Abilene.
阿比林? Abilene?
我是说，她是在这样的派对上死的。 I mean, she died at a party like this.
我以为你写完了那个故事。 I thought you finished that story.
哦。 Oh.
这是为我们准备的。 This is just for us.
反正也不是什么好故事。 Well, it's not a very good story anyway.
哦，她是个瘾君子。 Oh, she was a drug addict.
她吸毒过量。 She OD'd.
然后她试图拨打911。 Then she tried to call 911.
哦。在德州，我们不打911。 Oh. In Texas, we don't call 911.
是的，我听说过。 Yeah, I've heard that.
他们会记录所有的通话。 They record all those calls.
我们得小心被录下来的东西。 We gotta be very careful about what gets recorded.
是的。你做的事情。 Yeah. You do.
这是我们唯一剩下的东西。 It's all that's left of us.
录音。 The recordings.
像你我这样的人，艾比林，每个人都把自己一天中的每一件事拍下来，我们用自己的整个生活来交换那些被记录下来的小片段。 And people like you and I, Abilene, everybody posting photos of every part of their day, we trade in our entire lives for the tiny pieces that get recorded of us.
艾比林试图拨打911。 Abilene tried to call 911.
你没让她这么做。然后呢? You didn't let her. Then what?
哦，天啊 Oh, boy.
不要分心。 Don't get distracted.
你得承认，那可真够让人分心的。 You gotta admit, that's a hell of a distraction.
这是……这有点像分心的定义。 That is... That's kind of like the very definition of distraction.
——阿比林。-♪阿比林。♪ - Abilene. - ♪ Abilene. ♪
艾柏林怎么了? What happened to Abilene?
你相信有鬼吗，本? Do you believe in ghosts, Ben?
我之前接到一个鬼魂的电话。 I got a call from a ghost earlier.
我还以为今天能见到你呢。 Kind of thought I'd be seeing you today.
她怎么了? What happened to her?
你为什么这么在意? Why do you care so much?
你为什么这么不在乎? Why do you care so little?
她吸毒过量 She overdosed.
你不但没帮她，还把她拖去了事后派对，那是一个没有手机信号的地方，就在四个重叠的司法管辖区的交汇处，你知道她的死只会变成一个匿名的数据。 Instead of helping her, you dragged her to the Afterparty, which is a spot with no cell reception at the exact intersection of four overlapping law jurisdictions where you knew her death would just become an anonymous statistic.
嗯。 Hmm.
说得好。 It's well said.
非常简洁。 Very succinct.
是的。事实就是这样。 Yes. That's exactly what happened.
太棒了 Brilliant.
你明白了。 You got it.
你得到了一切。 You got it all.
这是一个关于美国的故事。 That's a story about America.
如果你需要我重录什么就告诉我。 Let me know if you need me to rerecord anything.
或者，换个说法。 Or, like, rephrase things.
我也可以这样做。 I can do that, too.
什么? What?
哦,来……你和我要坐下来讨论这件事。我希望它很棒。 Oh, come... You and I are gonna be sitting on a panel talking about this. I want it to be great.
我们都知道这是怎么回事。对吧? We both know how this works. Right?
是啊，我是说，一开始，大家都以为你抓到了坏人。 Yeah, I-I mean, at first, everyone's gonna think you got your bad guy.
没人会让事情这么简单的。 Nobody's gonna let it be that simple.
每个人都有自己的想法，因为现在就是这样。 Everyone's gonna have to have their take 'cause that's how it works now.
每个人都有自己的看法。 Everyone has a take.
看，如果你没有镜头，你就没有声音。 See, if you don't have a take, you don't have a voice.
如果你没有声音，你就不存在。 If you don't have a voice, you don't exist.
所以没错，一开始，所有人都会怪我。 So yeah, at first, everyone's gonna blame me.
但有人会说"等一下" But then someone's gonna say, "Wait a second."
让人死和杀了人是有很大区别的。 There's a big difference between leaving somebody to die and killing somebody.
然后他们就会转向你。 Then they're gonna turn to you.
你一开始来这里做什么? What were you doing here in the first place?
你和她是什么关系? What was your relationship with her?
你为什么要利用她悲伤的家人? Why would you exploit her grieving family?
那些……这些字符。 Those... Those characters.
我的意思是……我是说，他们会变成那样的。 I mean... I mean, that's what they're gonna be.
著名的人物。 Famous characters.
不是名人。 Not famous people.
然后他们就会把责任推到家人身上。 And then they're gonna blame the family.
我希望他们准备好了。 Oh, I hope they're ready for that.
他们会责怪总统。 They'll blame the president.
最后一个总统。 The last president.
然后他们就会开始说阴谋论。 And then they'll start in with the conspiracy theories.
有人会反驳阴谋论，然后其中一方会把他们的说法当做他们的目标。 You know, and someone will refute the conspiracy theories, and then one side will make their version like their cause.
而另一边也会站在另一边就为了站在另一边。 And the other side will take the other side just to take the other side and on, and on.
直到你的故事证明了我们这个时代的决定性真相。 Until your story proves the defining truth of our time.
这是什么? Which is what?
一切意味着一切。 Everything means everything.
所以没有任何意义。 So nothing means anything.
有些事情是有意义的。 Some things mean something.
是吗? Yeah?
像什么? Like what?
阿比林? Abilene?
你根本不关心她。 You didn't care about her.
你是为自己而来。 You came here for yourself.
记录。 For recording.
然后你听到了她的音乐。 And then you heard her music.
你也看到她的照片了。 And you saw her photos.
她的记录。 The record of her.
这就是你所关心的。 And that's what you care for.
一个记录。 A recording.
不是一个人。 Not a person.
我们都是……只是对我们自己记录的灵感。 We are all... just inspirations for the record of ourselves.
你我都知道。 You and I both know it.
你有你的作品。 You got your opus.
这才是最重要的。 And that's what matters.
但阿比林? But Abilene?
这个人吗? The person?
来吧。 Come on.
她只是个普通的女孩。 She was just some girl.
这是事实，本。 That's the truth, Ben.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
开快 ♪ Drive fast ♪
我现在几乎能尝到它的味道了 ♪ I can almost taste it now ♪
洛杉矶♪♪ ♪ L.A. ♪
我现在甚至不用再假装了 ♪ I don't even have to fake it now ♪
你好像病了 ♪ You were like so sick ♪
每个人都这么说 ♪ Everybody said it ♪
你走在潮流前面了，快走 ♪ You were way ahead of the trend, ge-get it ♪
“猫王是最棒的，没错” ♪ "Elvis is the best, hell yes" ♪
"亲爱的，穿上派对礼服" ♪ "Honey, put on that party dress" ♪
就像哦，哦，哦，哦，哦 ♪ Like ooh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
哦，哦，哦，哦，啊 ♪ Ooh, ooh, oh, oh, ah ♪
♪你让我疯狂♪ ♪ You make me crazy ♪
♪你让我疯狂 ♪ You make me wild ♪
♪就像个婴儿一样，让我像个孩子一样旋转 ♪ Just like a baby, spin me round like a child ♪
你的皮肤这么 ♪ Your skin so ♪
金色 ♪ Golden brown ♪
要年轻 ♪ Be young ♪
♪要潇洒，要骄傲 ♪ Be dope, be proud ♪
像个美国人 ♪ Like an American ♪
♪哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦 ♪ Ooh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
像个美国人 ♪ Like an American ♪
♪哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦 ♪ Ooh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
每个人都想走得快 ♪ Everybody wants to go fast ♪
但是他们不能和相比 ♪ But they can't compare ♪
我真的不想要剩下的 ♪ I don't really want the rest ♪
只有你能送我到那里 ♪ Only you can take me there ♪
我都不知道我在说什么 ♪ I don't even know what I'm saying ♪
♪但是我在为你祈祷…♪ ♪ But I'm praying for you... ♪
我们收到一份疑似吸毒过量的报告。 We got a report of a possible overdose.
4940年。颁奖典礼后 4940, Afterparty.
救护车的途中。 Ambulance en route.
周六晚上的911 ? A 911 on a Saturday night?
废话。 Bullshit.
人。 People.
有一个报告。 Got a report.
昆汀·塞勒斯头部中枪。 Quentin Sellers shot in the head.
Q?
我从没想过他会出事故。 I never thought of that guy as accident-prone.
让我们今晚尽情狂欢吧，在门口检查你的心扉 ♪ Let's get wild tonight, check your heart at the door ♪
今晚不应该这样 ♪ That ain't what tonight is for ♪
这是一段古老的时光，美好的时光……♪ ♪ It's an old times, good times... ♪
当我收到信号我要给你发这条短信 ♪ Gonna send you this text when I get signal ♪
我只知道该怎么说……♪ ♪ I'll know just the words to say when I do... ♪
我听说你们和好了。 I heard that y'all made up.
是的。 Yeah.
我知道昨晚的派对很精彩。 And I understand that was quite a party last night.
我不在那里。 I wasn't there.
没错，你不是。 That's right, you weren't.
但是…我听说那是个很不错的派对。 But... I heard it was a pretty good party.
我已经……非常喜欢待在你家里。 I've... very much enjoyed being in your home.
你需要搭车。 You're gonna need a ride.
这是真的。 That's true.
我的车…你回来后有什么计划? My car is, uh... What are your plans when you get back?
看来我得找个新故事了。 Guess I have to find a new story.
毕竟呢? After all that?
那艾比的事呢? What about all that stuff with Abby?
我觉得这个故事只适合我们。 I think that story's just for us.
哦。 Oh.
那也很好。 That's nice, too.
没有遗憾。 No regrets.
我一直不明白。 I never understood that.
没有遗憾。 No regrets.
我是说，你怎么…在我的生命中，一切都以遗憾开始，以遗憾结束。 I mean, how do you... In my life, everything starts with a regret, ends with a regret.
在这之间,是遗憾。 In between, regrets.
都是遗憾。 It's all regrets.
你尽可能快地从最后的遗憾中解脱出来，当然，你只是直接奔向下一个遗憾。 You run as fast as you can from the last regret and, of course, you're just running straight into the next one.
这就是生活。 That's life.
都是遗憾。 It's all regrets.
这才是他们应该说的。 That's what they should say.
别无他法活着。 No other way to be alive.
都是遗憾。 It's all regrets.
好好珍惜 Make 'em count.